I could see my breath as I rested my head against your thigh.
It was almost as thick as your cigarette smoke
Which crawled down my throat and burned my nostrils
We couldn’t afford the heat bill, we couldn’t afford anything
But I stopped mentioning that
I remember the first time i did,you got so angry
I watched the defensive walls begin to build
The comments made you feel less than a man
Because you couldn't provide for me
At least not in your mind
It made you feel like your father
I watched the muscles in your neck strain against your skin
Any second now… I thought they’d rip right through
The vein in your temple
Growing bigger as you yelled
Your voice pierced my ears like glass fibers being shoved through them
You told me you knew I was weak
That you knew I couldn’t handle it
You left after that
In a rage of red, leaving destruction
The night seemed cold after that, chilly
Watching the clock I think to how we got here
I didn’thear your footsteps till 4:22
The morning became still
As my heart beat matched your steps
There was no car alarm going off anymore
No hissing from the cat fight in the ally
It was just quiet
I watched the door **** move
You came right in no hesitation
And I knew you felt miserable
I could see it in your eyes as I brushed your tears away
Felt it in you touch as I kissed ‘I’m sorry’ away
Nov 13, 2013
Nov 13, 2013 at 8:03 PM UTC
I could see my breath as I rested my head against your thigh.
It was almost as thick as your cigarette smoke
Which crawled down my throat and burned my nostrils
We couldn’t afford the heat bill, we couldn’t afford anything
But I stopped mentioning that
I remember the first time i did,you got so angry
I watched the defensive walls begin to build
The comments made you feel less than a man
Because you couldn't provide for me
At least not in your mind
It made you feel like your father
I watched the muscles in your neck strain against your skin
Any second now… I thought they’d rip right through
The vein in your temple
Growing bigger as you yelled
Your voice pierced my ears like glass fibers being shoved through them
You told me you knew I was weak
That you knew I couldn’t handle it
You left after that
In a rage of red, leaving destruction
The night seemed cold after that, chilly
Watching the clock I think to how we got here
I didn’thear your footsteps till 4:22
The morning became still
As my heart beat matched your steps
There was no car alarm going off anymore
No hissing from the cat fight in the ally
It was just quiet
I watched the door **** move
You came right in no hesitation
And I knew you felt miserable
I could see it in your eyes as I brushed your tears away
Felt it in you touch as I kissed ‘I’m sorry’ away
