Sometimes i like to imagine what life could have been like if i never met you.
I could smile each day whilst being confident in myself
Wear the clothes i always liked.......vintage dresses with laced socks.....hair in a bun.
I could speak to people ive never met without feeling anxious. I could look in the mirror and actually like what i see. I could go swimming without feeling self conscious about the size of my thighs. I would be able to go out with friends to have a few drinks.I would be able to study hard and go on to have a good career. Food.......i could eat all the pastries ive always wanted without the feelings of guilt.....self hatred....self loathing.....but of course i cant. You make me scared to wear anything nice.....a simple black cardigan will do. ....i cannot speak to anyone....not even the lady who runs the corner shop.
Jan 11, 2019
Jan 11, 2019 at 12:54 PM UTC
Sometimes i like to imagine what life could have been like if i never met you.
I could smile each day whilst being confident in myself
Wear the clothes i always liked.......vintage dresses with laced socks.....hair in a bun.
I could speak to people ive never met without feeling anxious. I could look in the mirror and actually like what i see. I could go swimming without feeling self conscious about the size of my thighs. I would be able to go out with friends to have a few drinks.I would be able to study hard and go on to have a good career. Food.......i could eat all the pastries ive always wanted without the feelings of guilt.....self hatred....self loathing.....but of course i cant. You make me scared to wear anything nice.....a simple black cardigan will do. ....i cannot speak to anyone....not even the lady who runs the corner shop.
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