XCinnamonAndSunshineX - Hello Poetry

They told me I would smile again That I would find my happiness But ever since you left, my heart hasn't been able to heal I still see your spirit and though it hurts me so, i know you're at peace The days when we would laugh The days when we shared tears The days when you would tell me you loved me are all distant and no longer close I tell myself you are ok but I will always be alone Loss is strange because even though you're not with us anymore.......I still feel your presence and it hurts so.

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Sep 20, 2024

Sep 20, 2024 at 7:33 AM UTC

Loss

They told me I would smile again That I would find my happiness But ever since you left, my heart hasn't been able to heal I still see your spirit and though it hurts me so, i know you're at peace The days when we would laugh The days when we shared tears The days when you would tell me you loved me are all distant and no longer close I tell myself you are ok but I will always be alone Loss is strange because even though you're not with us anymore.......I still feel your presence and it hurts so.

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I've been gone for a while Not seen or heard Hiding away from the harsh reality of life I've tried to get involved and I've tried my best But every time I try I only feel stressed I'd love to be able to stay inside Away from the pain and away from the sound of others bleeding my ears Do this Do that You're doing it wrong Try again Yet every time I try I feel like a part of me is dying inside I want to be free and I want to be me But when I am true you say you hate what I have become So what is it that you truly want? Because each time I ask you, you simply look me in the eyes and say "I want you to get better"

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Aug 19, 2023

Aug 19, 2023 at 10:24 AM UTC

Better

I've been gone for a while Not seen or heard Hiding away from the harsh reality of life I've tried to get involved and I've tried my best But every time I try I only feel stressed I'd love to be able to stay inside Away from the pain and away from the sound of others bleeding my ears Do this Do that You're doing it wrong Try again Yet every time I try I feel like a part of me is dying inside I want to be free and I want to be me But when I am true you say you hate what I have become So what is it that you truly want? Because each time I ask you, you simply look me in the eyes and say "I want you to get better"

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All I wanted was to gain control on a life I never had I'd do these things to myself whenever I was feeling sad No matter how hard I tried to stop When I didn't do these things my mood would drop I had no hope of a future, I was afraid I'd fall People tried to help but I'd put up a wall But now I know that a great life can be made I promise you can recover if you put down that blade.

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Mar 5, 2022

Mar 5, 2022 at 4:18 PM UTC

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All I wanted was to gain control on a life I never had I'd do these things to myself whenever I was feeling sad No matter how hard I tried to stop When I didn't do these things my mood would drop I had no hope of a future, I was afraid I'd fall People tried to help but I'd put up a wall But now I know that a great life can be made I promise you can recover if you put down that blade.

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Eyes wide open Staring through your soul I can see the pain in your eyes I can see your hurting I want to help I will be there when you cry I will be there when you cut I will be there to stitch you up I will be there through everything Through thick and through thin I will help you recover I will help you regain your wings I will help you blossom I will help you grow I will be there no matter what When the rain pours And rivers rise When the storms come When the lightning strikes We will stand tall Together through whatever i will never let you go. We got this!

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Jan 19, 2019

Jan 19, 2019 at 2:29 PM UTC

We got this!

Eyes wide open Staring through your soul I can see the pain in your eyes I can see your hurting I want to help I will be there when you cry I will be there when you cut I will be there to stitch you up I will be there through everything Through thick and through thin I will help you recover I will help you regain your wings I will help you blossom I will help you grow I will be there no matter what When the rain pours And rivers rise When the storms come When the lightning strikes We will stand tall Together through whatever i will never let you go. We got this!

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Sitting in a dark room Thoughts inside my head What do i do When i wish i was dead Pills to take Scars to heal When my thoughts Dont let me feel Heartache from fear Life hanging rear Bleeding inside Trying to abide By the rules that i wish But what is this My life is a mess I must stress

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Jan 12, 2019

Jan 12, 2019 at 5:46 PM UTC

What I Feel.

Sitting in a dark room Thoughts inside my head What do i do When i wish i was dead Pills to take Scars to heal When my thoughts Dont let me feel Heartache from fear Life hanging rear Bleeding inside Trying to abide By the rules that i wish But what is this My life is a mess I must stress

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Sometimes i like to imagine what life could have been like if i never met you. I could smile each day whilst being confident in myself Wear the clothes i always liked.......vintage dresses with laced socks.....hair in a bun. I could speak to people ive never met without feeling anxious. I could look in the mirror and actually like what i see. I could go swimming without feeling self conscious about the size of my thighs. I would be able to go out with friends to have a few drinks.I would be able to study hard and go on to have a good career. Food.......i could eat all the pastries ive always wanted without the feelings of guilt.....self hatred....self loathing.....but of course i cant. You make me scared to wear anything nice.....a simple black cardigan will do. ....i cannot speak to anyone....not even the lady who runs the corner shop.

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Jan 11, 2019

Jan 11, 2019 at 12:54 PM UTC

If i never met you.

Sometimes i like to imagine what life could have been like if i never met you. I could smile each day whilst being confident in myself Wear the clothes i always liked.......vintage dresses with laced socks.....hair in a bun. I could speak to people ive never met without feeling anxious. I could look in the mirror and actually like what i see. I could go swimming without feeling self conscious about the size of my thighs. I would be able to go out with friends to have a few drinks.I would be able to study hard and go on to have a good career. Food.......i could eat all the pastries ive always wanted without the feelings of guilt.....self hatred....self loathing.....but of course i cant. You make me scared to wear anything nice.....a simple black cardigan will do. ....i cannot speak to anyone....not even the lady who runs the corner shop.

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Would you love me if i was covered in scars? If I was always sad? If I couldn't commit? Would you love me if i couldn't love myself? Because i love you even though your heart is broke. When you say you cant go on. When you lose control. I love you for who you are. Can you learn to love me? Even though i dont love myself I would hope that you could love me for what i am.

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Jan 3, 2019

Jan 3, 2019 at 8:52 AM UTC

Would you.

Would you love me if i was covered in scars? If I was always sad? If I couldn't commit? Would you love me if i couldn't love myself? Because i love you even though your heart is broke. When you say you cant go on. When you lose control. I love you for who you are. Can you learn to love me? Even though i dont love myself I would hope that you could love me for what i am.

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This girl was sad and had pain within. She though she would be happy if she was thin. She starved herself to skin and bone. But she never felt worse.....hurt and alone. She tried to recover but couldnt get well......she hurt herself....she was living in hell. The doctors took over but she didnt know why.........she had no control and wanted to cry. Tubes and machines cover her every inch of skin.........but she isnt happy.......she feels the need to stay thin. She tries to fight every single day.....but she fails each time in every way. One day she will be happy,laugh and smile.....but for now she is lost and will be for a while.

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Jan 2, 2019

Jan 2, 2019 at 1:30 PM UTC

One day.

This girl was sad and had pain within. She though she would be happy if she was thin. She starved herself to skin and bone. But she never felt worse.....hurt and alone. She tried to recover but couldnt get well......she hurt herself....she was living in hell. The doctors took over but she didnt know why.........she had no control and wanted to cry. Tubes and machines cover her every inch of skin.........but she isnt happy.......she feels the need to stay thin. She tries to fight every single day.....but she fails each time in every way. One day she will be happy,laugh and smile.....but for now she is lost and will be for a while.

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I am. The one who stands tall and proud. The one who doesn't have a care in the world. The one who makes everyone laugh The one who is always smiling..... But is that really me? I cry myself to sleep.....I dont even eat..... My heart is closed because I cannot trust anyone. To think I feel this pain.....To hate every inch of my skin......I may seem ok to you but.......i guess its best not to judge a book by its cover.

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Jan 2, 2019

Jan 2, 2019 at 12:50 PM UTC

I am.

I am. The one who stands tall and proud. The one who doesn't have a care in the world. The one who makes everyone laugh The one who is always smiling..... But is that really me? I cry myself to sleep.....I dont even eat..... My heart is closed because I cannot trust anyone. To think I feel this pain.....To hate every inch of my skin......I may seem ok to you but.......i guess its best not to judge a book by its cover.

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