You’d think after 15 years I’d feel more than just anger
Instead I wake up each day waiting for it all to hit me
Waiting for the realization that I lost my best friend
But I think I lost her years ago
In the end I know it was my decision
My boundary being set
My feelings ignored
My anger keeps me company
Fearful that when it dissipates all that will be left in its place is regret
So each day I remind myself of why it came to this
Why I can’t be friends with someone who cannot take accountability without deflection and victim playing
Why I can’t be friends with someone who fights mean
Why I can’t be friends with someone who puts no effort into friendships but expects people to stick around
Why I can’t be friends with someone only through a phone
Why I can’t be friends with someone who doesn’t show up for me when it really counts
I think I knew this day would come for awhile
It doesn’t lessen the blow
Or erase the shared tattoo
But it does bring me some sort of peace
Feb 14, 2025
Feb 14, 2025 at 6:19 PM UTC
You’d think after 15 years I’d feel more than just anger
Instead I wake up each day waiting for it all to hit me
Waiting for the realization that I lost my best friend
But I think I lost her years ago
In the end I know it was my decision
My boundary being set
My feelings ignored
My anger keeps me company
Fearful that when it dissipates all that will be left in its place is regret
So each day I remind myself of why it came to this
Why I can’t be friends with someone who cannot take accountability without deflection and victim playing
Why I can’t be friends with someone who fights mean
Why I can’t be friends with someone who puts no effort into friendships but expects people to stick around
Why I can’t be friends with someone only through a phone
Why I can’t be friends with someone who doesn’t show up for me when it really counts
I think I knew this day would come for awhile
It doesn’t lessen the blow
Or erase the shared tattoo
But it does bring me some sort of peace