How am I supposed to react
When inside my own body
I feel so trapped
I'm expected to be what I present
But that doesn't reflect me
And this person you see, I've began to resent
Her pronouns don't feel like mine
And they haven't for a while
But changing them has helped over time
Sometimes it feels okay
Others I can't take it
Because how I feel changes day to day
The girl you see who wears the skirts
Who wears makeup to be confident
Isn't a girl at all, and feels like dirt
When you call me beautiful
I don't know how to feel
It feels so unusual
My body doesn't feel like mine
It belongs to a woman
If it didn't maybe I'd feel fine
My clothes don't reflect me
Neither does my makeup
This isn't who I want to be
I'm scared I'll never look neutral
Maybe you'll always see a girl
It just feels so brutal
The person you raised
Isn't who I grew into
I'm a new person today
I've never came out
But it's because I'm still so unsure
And if I told you you'd feel doubt
You raised a girl
Not someone doesn't feel right
A child who'd grow to wear dresses and pearls
I was always your princess
Never your prince or neither
But I've never felt secure in a dress
I'll never feel feminine
Not how you perceive it
But how I feel it is relevant
The tiara never fit my head quite right
And the long hair felt wrong
I wish I could change overnight
One day you'll know
I'll explain it all to you
But until then, I'll continue to grow
Apr 11, 2021
Apr 11, 2021 at 4:14 PM UTC
How am I supposed to react
When inside my own body
I feel so trapped
I'm expected to be what I present
But that doesn't reflect me
And this person you see, I've began to resent
Her pronouns don't feel like mine
And they haven't for a while
But changing them has helped over time
Sometimes it feels okay
Others I can't take it
Because how I feel changes day to day
The girl you see who wears the skirts
Who wears makeup to be confident
Isn't a girl at all, and feels like dirt
When you call me beautiful
I don't know how to feel
It feels so unusual
My body doesn't feel like mine
It belongs to a woman
If it didn't maybe I'd feel fine
My clothes don't reflect me
Neither does my makeup
This isn't who I want to be
I'm scared I'll never look neutral
Maybe you'll always see a girl
It just feels so brutal
The person you raised
Isn't who I grew into
I'm a new person today
I've never came out
But it's because I'm still so unsure
And if I told you you'd feel doubt
You raised a girl
Not someone doesn't feel right
A child who'd grow to wear dresses and pearls
I was always your princess
Never your prince or neither
But I've never felt secure in a dress
I'll never feel feminine
Not how you perceive it
But how I feel it is relevant
The tiara never fit my head quite right
And the long hair felt wrong
I wish I could change overnight
One day you'll know
I'll explain it all to you
But until then, I'll continue to grow
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