She waited for him for hours
she lost moments of her life for him
and where was he?
he wouldn't say
She hated him for days
she lost sleep out of disgust for him
and how did he sleep?
she'd never know
She wasted away for months
she never regained her taste for cigarette smoke
or the sun beneath her skin
and what was he doing?
he couldn't even remember
But she could never forget...
She remembered her name for years
it came to her in nightmares
She remembered exactly how many tears fell
on her bruised knees from her blue betrayed eyes
She knew he didn't know the hurt
he couldn't imagine what it felt like to die
She knew that he would never know
since "he has no heart... he's not a girl"
And yet, she still found the strength inside herself
the kind of strength that's an endless blue -- a blinding white
the kind that pulsates as it expands and doesn't crackle when it hardens
She found the strength to forgive him because
She was cosmic for a minute
she was held between his arms
and where was he?
exactly where she was
She was small for a second
she was jumping from her lips to his
and what was he doing?
building a paper house inside her chest
Jan 19, 2012
Jan 19, 2012 at 1:15 AM UTC
She waited for him for hours
she lost moments of her life for him
and where was he?
he wouldn't say
She hated him for days
she lost sleep out of disgust for him
and how did he sleep?
she'd never know
She wasted away for months
she never regained her taste for cigarette smoke
or the sun beneath her skin
and what was he doing?
he couldn't even remember
But she could never forget...
She remembered her name for years
it came to her in nightmares
She remembered exactly how many tears fell
on her bruised knees from her blue betrayed eyes
She knew he didn't know the hurt
he couldn't imagine what it felt like to die
She knew that he would never know
since "he has no heart... he's not a girl"
And yet, she still found the strength inside herself
the kind of strength that's an endless blue -- a blinding white
the kind that pulsates as it expands and doesn't crackle when it hardens
She found the strength to forgive him because
She was cosmic for a minute
she was held between his arms
and where was he?
exactly where she was
She was small for a second
she was jumping from her lips to his
and what was he doing?
building a paper house inside her chest
Freudian slip I guess... Originally, I accidentally typed "She found the strength to forgive me"
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