I once had a monstera
Who thrived in my tears
And melted mascara
We loved to share fears
She's sunburnt easily
So I'm happy to wallow
Simply ceaselessly
Since laughter is too bright
Content with shared misery
I keep curtains drawn tight
To keep her close by
Now I have your cactus
And I love it so much
I do what I've practiced
Gentle with my touch
I water it with my tears
I share all my fears
You've left me with this plant
So I can't let it die
I love it so much
So I cry and cry and cry
But something strange happens
Making my salt falter
The leaves shrivel and wrinkle
Maybe it needs more water
I scream as I cry
Because it keeps wilting
I love it I love it I love it
Maybe it needs more water
I'm so scared to lose this
To lose what's left of you
So nurture it in my way
It hasn't seen the sun in days
Why is my cactus dying?
Maybe I am just not trying
Hard enough to water it
The dam of my sorrows pours free
I'm flooding my favorite plant
Why is it dying?
I mix my tears with paint
It will accept my love if it's beautiful
I mix my tears with blood
It will accept my love if it's pitiful
I mix my tears with sugar
It will accept my love if it's sweet
I pour and pour and pour
And love and love and love
And cry and cry and cry
Please, I'm begging, just don't die
My tears fall into empty hands
A carcass sits in the window
Longing for desert sands
I realize too late
The sun is what it craves
Its roots filled with rot
Left too long in a soaked ***
The sun warms a plant long gone
I tried too hard. I tried too wrong
Neck aching, head bowed
My cactus can't love me now
Mar 6
Mar 6, 2026 at 3:54 PM UTC
I once had a monstera
Who thrived in my tears
And melted mascara
We loved to share fears
She's sunburnt easily
So I'm happy to wallow
Simply ceaselessly
Since laughter is too bright
Content with shared misery
I keep curtains drawn tight
To keep her close by
Now I have your cactus
And I love it so much
I do what I've practiced
Gentle with my touch
I water it with my tears
I share all my fears
You've left me with this plant
So I can't let it die
I love it so much
So I cry and cry and cry
But something strange happens
Making my salt falter
The leaves shrivel and wrinkle
Maybe it needs more water
I scream as I cry
Because it keeps wilting
I love it I love it I love it
Maybe it needs more water
I'm so scared to lose this
To lose what's left of you
So nurture it in my way
It hasn't seen the sun in days
Why is my cactus dying?
Maybe I am just not trying
Hard enough to water it
The dam of my sorrows pours free
I'm flooding my favorite plant
Why is it dying?
I mix my tears with paint
It will accept my love if it's beautiful
I mix my tears with blood
It will accept my love if it's pitiful
I mix my tears with sugar
It will accept my love if it's sweet
I pour and pour and pour
And love and love and love
And cry and cry and cry
Please, I'm begging, just don't die
My tears fall into empty hands
A carcass sits in the window
Longing for desert sands
I realize too late
The sun is what it craves
Its roots filled with rot
Left too long in a soaked ***
The sun warms a plant long gone
I tried too hard. I tried too wrong
Neck aching, head bowed
My cactus can't love me now
