I tried making you happy
In dawn of our romance
My heart put on display
As if I even stood a chance
I believed a little bit of time
Would soften edges to touch
Make you need my presence here
Our hands to desperately clutch
But did not become irresistible
Attraction fading from eyes
Gave my best but wasn't enough
To nobody's surprise
Where purple and black ink dance on paper
Emotions slowly spill
Deepest pool of self-loathing
Has almost reached maximum fill
I never seem to read your mind
Between lines you critically bark
Wonder what mysterious force pulls near
Ever-present question mark
Worry you hunger for new connection
Different happy ending to write
Someone compatible with your character
Who causes zero reason to fight
Despite a multitude of issues
You stay steadfast and unwary
Like I have the whole world in the palm of my hands
Complaining it's too heavy to carry
I'd appreciate feeling welcome in your arms once more
Instead a burden straining your back
A soon as I start getting comfortable
Remind me of traits that I lack
I've already ripped self-esteem to shreds
So little confidence left remaining
Critique is simply the icing on top
A whole cake of damage I'm sustaining
I select goals I never seem to achieve
Veering too far to the left or right
Document every failure in detail
To torment brain with late at night
When attempting to meet your expectations
Inevitably falter under distress
Maybe that's a pathetic excuse
It is truthful nonetheless
T(he only way we will be together forever
By trapping you within a cage
Still I strive to be somebody you deserve
I am just too selfish to change
But I care about your well-being
Kills me inside watching your happiness burn
Love you enough to set you free
Fully aware you will never return
Oct 25, 2025
Oct 25, 2025 at 6:18 AM UTC
I tried making you happy
In dawn of our romance
My heart put on display
As if I even stood a chance
I believed a little bit of time
Would soften edges to touch
Make you need my presence here
Our hands to desperately clutch
But did not become irresistible
Attraction fading from eyes
Gave my best but wasn't enough
To nobody's surprise
Where purple and black ink dance on paper
Emotions slowly spill
Deepest pool of self-loathing
Has almost reached maximum fill
I never seem to read your mind
Between lines you critically bark
Wonder what mysterious force pulls near
Ever-present question mark
Worry you hunger for new connection
Different happy ending to write
Someone compatible with your character
Who causes zero reason to fight
Despite a multitude of issues
You stay steadfast and unwary
Like I have the whole world in the palm of my hands
Complaining it's too heavy to carry
I'd appreciate feeling welcome in your arms once more
Instead a burden straining your back
A soon as I start getting comfortable
Remind me of traits that I lack
I've already ripped self-esteem to shreds
So little confidence left remaining
Critique is simply the icing on top
A whole cake of damage I'm sustaining
I select goals I never seem to achieve
Veering too far to the left or right
Document every failure in detail
To torment brain with late at night
When attempting to meet your expectations
Inevitably falter under distress
Maybe that's a pathetic excuse
It is truthful nonetheless
T(he only way we will be together forever
By trapping you within a cage
Still I strive to be somebody you deserve
I am just too selfish to change
But I care about your well-being
Kills me inside watching your happiness burn
Love you enough to set you free
Fully aware you will never return
If I love you like I say I do I must find the strength to let you go
But saying goodbye is so much harder than you could ever know
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