I don’t care anymore.
I say it
like a mantra
under my breath
while I brush my teeth,
while I drive,
while I pretend
your name
doesn’t still echo
in quiet places.
I don’t care anymore.
You’re just another person
in a world
full of people.
Just another voice
I used to know,
another face
my memory will eventually
file away
with everything else
that once mattered.
At least
that’s what I tell myself.
I tell myself
I don’t notice
when a song reminds me of you.
I tell myself
I don’t wonder
if you’re thinking about me
at the exact moment
I’m trying not to think about you.
I tell myself
that the space you left behind
isn’t something I still reach for
in quiet moments
when the world slows down.
I tell myself
I’ve moved on.
That my heart
has learned
how to close that door.
That you’re no longer
a thought
I carry around
like something unfinished.
I say it again
firmly this time.
I don’t care anymore.
I don’t care anymore.
I don’t-
And then the room goes quiet.
And in the silence
between the words
I realize something
my voice was trying
very hard
to outrun.
If I truly didn’t care,
I wouldn’t have to keep
convincing myself.
3d ago
May 31, 2026 at 6:18 PM UTC
I don’t care anymore.
I say it
like a mantra
under my breath
while I brush my teeth,
while I drive,
while I pretend
your name
doesn’t still echo
in quiet places.
I don’t care anymore.
You’re just another person
in a world
full of people.
Just another voice
I used to know,
another face
my memory will eventually
file away
with everything else
that once mattered.
At least
that’s what I tell myself.
I tell myself
I don’t notice
when a song reminds me of you.
I tell myself
I don’t wonder
if you’re thinking about me
at the exact moment
I’m trying not to think about you.
I tell myself
that the space you left behind
isn’t something I still reach for
in quiet moments
when the world slows down.
I tell myself
I’ve moved on.
That my heart
has learned
how to close that door.
That you’re no longer
a thought
I carry around
like something unfinished.
I say it again
firmly this time.
I don’t care anymore.
I don’t care anymore.
I don’t-
And then the room goes quiet.
And in the silence
between the words
I realize something
my voice was trying
very hard
to outrun.
If I truly didn’t care,
I wouldn’t have to keep
convincing myself.