Summer breeze coasting through the trees
Wind chimes remind me
I've had better times
But here I am again
******
Because I can't sleep peacefully
Mary Jane hides the worst in me
As I shut my eyes,
I only see
Darkness,
Liquid black
Like the color of my soul
I was doing so well you see
*Clean
Sober
Running
Yoga*
But I had a crack in my shield
And the nightmares came back
Brutally vengeful
I only had my screams to keep me company
3 hours, and one very hot shower later
And I'm back,
Contemplating life on the patio
Flicking a lighter
Breathing deep
Letting the smoke seep
Back into my system
*****
High
Still
Weak*
It's a vicious cycle
Recovering from memories
My nightmare waits for me back home
2 hours and 12 minutes away
I can't put it off any longer
Just thinking about him makes me anxious
And terribly sad
Because people who tell you they love you
Shouldn't hurt you
They shouldn't force and rip their way inside of you
Until everything burns
Make no mistake
Tears don't blur the violence
Soap never disinfects the shame of silence
I think I should be over it by now
Honestly, **** happens
People get ***** every day
Anyone who tells you different is a liar
Or perhaps just blind
Either way,
I don't need prayers
I don't need sympathy
I probably need a **** lobotomy
Or maybe just a clean slate
So I continue to breathe
One breath at a time
While my eyes gradually drift close
I am alive
But parts of me are dead
I
Am
Not
Broken
But even Wonder Woman needs a day off
© 2014 Peach
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 3:31 AM UTC
Summer breeze coasting through the trees
Wind chimes remind me
I've had better times
But here I am again
******
Because I can't sleep peacefully
Mary Jane hides the worst in me
As I shut my eyes,
I only see
Darkness,
Liquid black
Like the color of my soul
I was doing so well you see
*Clean
Sober
Running
Yoga*
But I had a crack in my shield
And the nightmares came back
Brutally vengeful
I only had my screams to keep me company
3 hours, and one very hot shower later
And I'm back,
Contemplating life on the patio
Flicking a lighter
Breathing deep
Letting the smoke seep
Back into my system
*****
High
Still
Weak*
It's a vicious cycle
Recovering from memories
My nightmare waits for me back home
2 hours and 12 minutes away
I can't put it off any longer
Just thinking about him makes me anxious
And terribly sad
Because people who tell you they love you
Shouldn't hurt you
They shouldn't force and rip their way inside of you
Until everything burns
Make no mistake
Tears don't blur the violence
Soap never disinfects the shame of silence
I think I should be over it by now
Honestly, **** happens
People get ***** every day
Anyone who tells you different is a liar
Or perhaps just blind
Either way,
I don't need prayers
I don't need sympathy
I probably need a **** lobotomy
Or maybe just a clean slate
So I continue to breathe
One breath at a time
While my eyes gradually drift close
I am alive
But parts of me are dead
I
Am
Not
Broken
But even Wonder Woman needs a day off
© 2014 Peach
