I thought love was when you made me hot tea in the morning because I was sick
I thought love was how you stocked up on tissues because you found out I had allergic rhinitis
I thought love was when you hugged me in your sleep, without knowing that I was awake and silently crying
I thought love was your commitment to waiting for me, being patient with me knowing that I was not in an easy state
I thought love was the way you dealt with my intoxicated breakdowns
Man, the list could go on because I honestly thought maybe love was all the things you did that I wasn't used to because you made me feel that for once, the stars finally aligned in my favor
but you were just in a phase of infatuation while I was in a phase of breaking down walls, learning to accept the "love" I was never used to.
Real love, my dear is how I am hurting;
is knowing I deserve better
but still wishing you were the better that I deserved.
I miss you
I should stop
but real love doesn't just go away so quickly
which is why I'm left to wonder
why you're so okay with losing me
I guess that just means you never loved me.
Sep 22, 2019
Sep 22, 2019 at 3:50 AM UTC
I thought love was when you made me hot tea in the morning because I was sick
I thought love was how you stocked up on tissues because you found out I had allergic rhinitis
I thought love was when you hugged me in your sleep, without knowing that I was awake and silently crying
I thought love was your commitment to waiting for me, being patient with me knowing that I was not in an easy state
I thought love was the way you dealt with my intoxicated breakdowns
Man, the list could go on because I honestly thought maybe love was all the things you did that I wasn't used to because you made me feel that for once, the stars finally aligned in my favor
but you were just in a phase of infatuation while I was in a phase of breaking down walls, learning to accept the "love" I was never used to.
Real love, my dear is how I am hurting;
is knowing I deserve better
but still wishing you were the better that I deserved.
I miss you
I should stop
but real love doesn't just go away so quickly
which is why I'm left to wonder
why you're so okay with losing me
I guess that just means you never loved me.
I'm sorry I fell for your ******** Thanks for reminding me of why I built my walls up so high in the first place.
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