You tell me “It’s just a bad day”
If it’s just a bad day then why did I cry myself to sleep yesterday?
And the day before why did I find myself on the bathroom floor holding a blade to my wrist?
Was that “just a bad day” too?
And this weekend when I saved the suicide hotline number in my phone just to be safe
Was I just having another bad day?
And when I couldn’t sit through class because my throat closed in due to yet another panic attack
And when I was called to the office because someone noticed my scars
Maybe I was just having a bad day.
And maybe this is normal, because it’s just a bad day
And maybe there's actually nothing wrong with me because everyone has their ups and downs
So maybe when I stay up late and consider whether I should use a rope or a knife
Maybe it’s just a bad night?
And when this continues day after day week after week and month after month
Maybe it's just a bad life?
Please don’t tell me “its just a bad day”
Because bad days are for normal people with normal lives
Because actually it’s just a bad brain
Don’t tell me It will be okay and get better eventually
Because my serotonin levels are not going to go up overnight.
May 29, 2018
May 29, 2018 at 12:45 PM UTC
You tell me “It’s just a bad day”
If it’s just a bad day then why did I cry myself to sleep yesterday?
And the day before why did I find myself on the bathroom floor holding a blade to my wrist?
Was that “just a bad day” too?
And this weekend when I saved the suicide hotline number in my phone just to be safe
Was I just having another bad day?
And when I couldn’t sit through class because my throat closed in due to yet another panic attack
And when I was called to the office because someone noticed my scars
Maybe I was just having a bad day.
And maybe this is normal, because it’s just a bad day
And maybe there's actually nothing wrong with me because everyone has their ups and downs
So maybe when I stay up late and consider whether I should use a rope or a knife
Maybe it’s just a bad night?
And when this continues day after day week after week and month after month
Maybe it's just a bad life?
Please don’t tell me “its just a bad day”
Because bad days are for normal people with normal lives
Because actually it’s just a bad brain
Don’t tell me It will be okay and get better eventually
Because my serotonin levels are not going to go up overnight.
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