i think i might be destined to be alone
mismatched attractions
never aligned
well, maybe aligned
for a night
but not much more than that
and i do cherish the nights i have with others
but afterwards i just feel lonely
my heart yearns too much for things it cannot have
i get jealous about things that arent mine
and wont ever be
i know my heart isnt destined to be with any singular person
and i dont know if i
will ever meet someone who understands
and besides
i have always been told (albeit, indirectly,) that i am unlovable
undesirable
at best; a means to an end
sometimes it feels like
as long as i can be useful to someone
used by someone
i would have some kind of purpose to fulfill
and then maybe i could be
worth something
the reasonable part of my brain knows,
obviously,
that that is stupid
but when someone tells me how good i have been
while putting their hand against my skin
i will lean into it
every single time
Dec 9, 2025
Dec 9, 2025 at 6:40 PM UTC
i think i might be destined to be alone
mismatched attractions
never aligned
well, maybe aligned
for a night
but not much more than that
and i do cherish the nights i have with others
but afterwards i just feel lonely
my heart yearns too much for things it cannot have
i get jealous about things that arent mine
and wont ever be
i know my heart isnt destined to be with any singular person
and i dont know if i
will ever meet someone who understands
and besides
i have always been told (albeit, indirectly,) that i am unlovable
undesirable
at best; a means to an end
sometimes it feels like
as long as i can be useful to someone
used by someone
i would have some kind of purpose to fulfill
and then maybe i could be
worth something
the reasonable part of my brain knows,
obviously,
that that is stupid
but when someone tells me how good i have been
while putting their hand against my skin
i will lean into it
every single time
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