i thought that i could miss it
but i heard the sound
stomach falling through me
because i turned around
i know that you can feel me
burning through your ground
i didn't know that i hurt you
until i saw you drown
i feel every muscle when you glare at me
i painted you a picture
but it's not what you see
now i know
i was the monster
i'm probably diseased
i thought it was love language
i thought you'd admire me
i could say i'm sorry but that won't bring it back
so maybe i can lock myself inside my head
fill the holes and close the cracks
maybe it's true
i'm delusional, obsessed, deranged and aloof
but i finally realise and sometimes accept
that i am
nothing to you
May 5, 2019
May 5, 2019 at 2:47 AM UTC
i thought that i could miss it
but i heard the sound
stomach falling through me
because i turned around
i know that you can feel me
burning through your ground
i didn't know that i hurt you
until i saw you drown
i feel every muscle when you glare at me
i painted you a picture
but it's not what you see
now i know
i was the monster
i'm probably diseased
i thought it was love language
i thought you'd admire me
i could say i'm sorry but that won't bring it back
so maybe i can lock myself inside my head
fill the holes and close the cracks
maybe it's true
i'm delusional, obsessed, deranged and aloof
but i finally realise and sometimes accept
that i am
nothing to you