Why did you do that 5 days after my 19th birthday?
As if waiting until i graduated college
Or walking me down the aisle
Or seeing your grandchildren
Would make the pain any less bareable...
And its the little things that play with my emotions
Like...
Knowing i can never text you again
-Or wait by my window to watch you drive up the driveway because you were the only thing I was looking forward to all week
-Or sitting at an old burger joint discussing the power of the mind when intertwined with spirituality
-Or seeing the look on your face when I chased you around our handmade baseball field in the backyard
Those are the things I would give my own life to get back.
But two suicides dont make a life.
(At least thats what my psychologists say)
But I know if I could see my father again,
I would be taking my life back
Aug 8, 2018
Aug 8, 2018 at 2:54 PM UTC
Why did you do that 5 days after my 19th birthday?
As if waiting until i graduated college
Or walking me down the aisle
Or seeing your grandchildren
Would make the pain any less bareable...
And its the little things that play with my emotions
Like...
Knowing i can never text you again
-Or wait by my window to watch you drive up the driveway because you were the only thing I was looking forward to all week
-Or sitting at an old burger joint discussing the power of the mind when intertwined with spirituality
-Or seeing the look on your face when I chased you around our handmade baseball field in the backyard
Those are the things I would give my own life to get back.
But two suicides dont make a life.
(At least thats what my psychologists say)
But I know if I could see my father again,
I would be taking my life back
