I address you
In every daydream
With every song
Hoping to resolve
But my sadness
Is shielded by
Anger.
The words on
My lips always
"How could you?"
Your angel wings
Give you peace
But now I'm
Left in sorrow
The dream ends
With you leaving
Again.
Because nothing
Can resolve
Because you
Walked away
From pain.
From struggle.
From me.
Was
I
Not
Enough?
Oct 31, 2025
Oct 31, 2025 at 2:50 AM UTC
Lately,
I've been really angry with you.
Whenever I picture you,
I imagine myself yelling at you;
Tears in my eyes, pushing you back
Kind of yelling.
How could you?
How dare you!
Don't you see how you hurt me?
Couldn't you imagine what this would do to me?
Don't you realize what kind of future you ruined?
You left questions unanswered.
You dismissed all deep conversations we had left.
You thought I could handle it...
But I cant, okay?
I can't.
But you made your choice.
Now you can't reverse it.
So, how could you?
How.
Jun 20, 2025
Jun 20, 2025 at 12:27 AM UTC
Why does it feel
Like im wasting my time
Like my life is fading
To the back of the line
When nothing is wrong
But nothing feels right
Do I go back to sleep?
Or do I drown in the night?
I've made a fool of myself
When I said I don't need anyone's help
I can't survive with my eyes on the time
But my own life never felt like mine
When will my dreams feel real
Again
Like they're not just stuck in my
Head
And my body will move like im
Young
And I'll break free from
Everyone
May 22, 2025
May 22, 2025 at 12:17 AM UTC
Dad,
Piano music always reminds me of you.
I picture you playing
On a cloud so white
The very air twinkles
With the sound of your
Perfect tune.
It fills my heart
With a love so heavy
My whole body becomes light.
What I wish I could say,
What I wish I could do,
If I saw you on that very Cloud
Playing only for me
Can't be predicted.
Even in my imagination.
If I could run to you,
Wrap my arms around you,
Listen to your love song,
And sit beside you
As you played,
That moment would be
My clarity.
My heart finally at peace.
I would never want you to stop.
I wouldn't say a word.
If you just kept playing on that heavenly cloud.
Because I wish I listened more.
I wish
I could hear you play again.
Not just in my mind,
Not just in my dreams.
But on our own little cloud
Just you and me.
I love you, my piano man.
Mar 21, 2025
Mar 21, 2025 at 1:35 AM UTC
What a tragedy it is
To grow up believing
That everything gets better
When you become an adult
And when that time comes,
You see your parents
Without their masks--
Struggle,
Pain,
Disappointment.
Painted on their face
All along.
Then they welcome you,
To the rest of your life.
Mar 21, 2025
Mar 21, 2025 at 12:59 AM UTC
It's fascinating
That I keep coming back here.
When my heart breaks
And the darkness seeps in,
When there seems to be
No one to talk to
I come here
And I talk to myself.
I let strangers read the words
That no one can hear.
Even when they spill out of my mouth.
I come back to connect
With my true nature
And to those,
I dont even know their names.
So...I think I'll always be here.
So I can always be free.
Mar 18, 2025
Mar 18, 2025 at 12:38 AM UTC
Tonight I ask God
Why?
What makes me less
Worthy of carrying a
Child
Than parents that
Never wanted
Their kids?
I,
A woman clean of
Smoke and drink and scandal,
Must walk through
Hell
To get what I want,
Whilst others
Traumatize their offspring
With their chaos.
I see the mirror image
Of what I desire
Almost every day.
Yet,
Those that have it,
Have not gone through
What I, God,
Have gone through.
You know this better
Than anyone.
Yes,
I know
I'm not
Perfect.
But what about me
Yields my ability
To create life?
To create it for you, God
Why
Must I feel
This broken?
All I can do is trust You
Jan 22, 2025
Jan 22, 2025 at 12:37 AM UTC
I want my writing
To be profound
A work of art you just
Want to hang on your wall
And when you look at it
Day in and out
The words will seep
Back through your skin
And melt in your heart
And suddenly, you feel
Like someone you've never met
Knows you better than
Your closest companions
And somehow that's okay
Because now you know
You've never been alone.
Dec 28, 2024
Dec 28, 2024 at 1:21 AM UTC
Rain beats outside my window
The only sound lulling me to sleep
In this dark, cute apartment
I wonder how I might earn my keep
The black shadows hold me close
Keeping me warm when the night burns cold
I create to show my strength
Before my young skin becomes too old
How might the world observe me
When I emerge from this tight cocoon
With a laundry list of dreams
And no history of silver spoons
The light tells me to be brave
Because the dark won't last forever
My journey has just begun
With no ties left for me to sever
Dec 11, 2024
Dec 11, 2024 at 11:08 PM UTC