A double-edged sword.
I point at you and the other end pointed at my chest.
How can I defend myself when I am my own weapon
Against the destruction you create.
when I push you away,
I risk hurting myself through the anger that doesn’t dissolve
but I still can’t put my sword down.
When you step closer,
my blade lowers without permission,
my protection leaving me exposed to your danger.
The walls I built when you left
For the place I can call home -
where it doesn't have your footprints etched in the surface
Tracing the path where you left.
When you are here
I look in the mirror and brace to see your face
The face of my haunting shadow but all I feel is comfort.
But when you are not
I look in the mirror and for I can’t see
Who the person is staring back at me.
I forgot who I was without you by my side.
My double-edged sword I used to keep you away is still pointed at me
As I know, if I don’t stop it now the consequences rely on me.
I walk closer to you
Knowing it will hurt
My double-edged sword can’t hurt you
As it only stabs me.
Stabbing me in the only place you missed, my heart.
May 21
May 21, 2026 at 7:17 PM UTC
A double-edged sword.
I point at you and the other end pointed at my chest.
How can I defend myself when I am my own weapon
Against the destruction you create.
when I push you away,
I risk hurting myself through the anger that doesn’t dissolve
but I still can’t put my sword down.
When you step closer,
my blade lowers without permission,
my protection leaving me exposed to your danger.
The walls I built when you left
For the place I can call home -
where it doesn't have your footprints etched in the surface
Tracing the path where you left.
When you are here
I look in the mirror and brace to see your face
The face of my haunting shadow but all I feel is comfort.
But when you are not
I look in the mirror and for I can’t see
Who the person is staring back at me.
I forgot who I was without you by my side.
My double-edged sword I used to keep you away is still pointed at me
As I know, if I don’t stop it now the consequences rely on me.
I walk closer to you
Knowing it will hurt
My double-edged sword can’t hurt you
As it only stabs me.
Stabbing me in the only place you missed, my heart.
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