my silent chaos,
the sound of falling apart,
my heart keeps you here when you go.
giving life to mourning,
only standing still for others,
but i can't stand myself,
**** me, **** myself,
**** whatever was done to me,
**** what i can't fix.
i'll always want to,
i'll always put it to the side,
i'll always want you to be okay,
i'll always want you to,
I've always wanted to die,
living, loving, lessons and lies,
family trauma,
tripping all my ******* life,
killing myself so my feelings don't lie,
living just to try,
too hard to believe that my life is mine.
May 2
May 2, 2026 at 12:53 AM UTC
my silent chaos,
the sound of falling apart,
my heart keeps you here when you go.
giving life to mourning,
only standing still for others,
but i can't stand myself,
**** me, **** myself,
**** whatever was done to me,
**** what i can't fix.
i'll always want to,
i'll always put it to the side,
i'll always want you to be okay,
i'll always want you to,
I've always wanted to die,
living, loving, lessons and lies,
family trauma,
tripping all my ******* life,
killing myself so my feelings don't lie,
living just to try,
too hard to believe that my life is mine.
