no one speaks to a drunk,
while the dead sides its own road,
carried pursuits in their pockets,
watches strangers walk through doors.
i was fresh eyed, unclaimed in life,
counting every star i could call mine,
meaning nothing but a pit in the earth.
5d ago
May 29, 2026 at 12:48 AM UTC
some songs you soak,
in the gasoline of now,
to set fire the life you can't escape.
alight, it becomes all your dreams.
it burns and burns, later you learn,
it's you that had shone bright,
like a star in the middle of night.
May 16
May 16, 2026 at 10:30 PM UTC
childhood car ride windows,
melting into an illness,
crazy things that keep us sane,
killing time or ourselves,
marrying nostalgia for peace,
marring principles for pressure,
i'm not crazy,
we all grew up with grape juice,
remembering empty homes,
holding on to fences and hope,
falling asleep without pills,
waking up without pills,
spinning drinks on a weekend,
tearing your hand from reality,
feeling skyscrapers in glass limousines.
May 12
May 12, 2026 at 1:58 PM UTC
hold my head,
tell me i'm still here in ten years.
it only feels like so long,
when life's an ocean i can't solve,
but i'll breathe when it tells me,
i'll gasp while you're away,
i'll sit when you come back,
i'll spend my last dime,
ever cherishing time,
only living in your life,
no cure could **** my tenure.
May 10
May 10, 2026 at 12:38 AM UTC
i don't think i'm complex,
i don't think i'm worthy of love.
all those things the stars sing,
they sing so far away from me.
the kind of love i give to strangers,
i forget it's given to me.
i can't see when i'm loved,
i don't know if i'm loved,
i spend tomorrow trying.
there is no lighthouse to my storm,
no beacon to follow for all my years.
my blueprint to doing things wrong,
at the time it felt right,
that sweet relief of selling time.
now i'm still here,
sitting in the same skin,
but i still hear those stars sing,
drawing my morbid curiosity,
drowning is just another part of living.
whatever gaps the dead leave behind,
life fills them with such sorrow,
until you pray for another fire.
May 9
May 9, 2026 at 2:39 AM UTC
give me another winter,
i was brave without teeth,
taunting each time you let me breathe,
now i make the romans building me,
charging forth with dreadful ease,
the kind that keeps me.
May 3
May 3, 2026 at 12:01 AM UTC
the best thing i ever did,
i did sober;
i left my friends alone at night addressed my best impressions dressed in alcoholic distress i left a girl i didnt message made a war i cant express i chose a job besides a drink i left a chance to chase a dream i slumped a little in my teens i bought my trauma from my dreams i ****** alot it wasn't me i struggled sexuality i sent myself into a spiral cherishing loved ones leaving options throughout my childhood trauma treating life like a grain of salt it wasn't real.
May 2
May 2, 2026 at 11:55 PM UTC
my silent chaos,
the sound of falling apart,
my heart keeps you here when you go.
giving life to mourning,
only standing still for others,
but i can't stand myself,
**** me, **** myself,
**** whatever was done to me,
**** what i can't fix.
i'll always want to,
i'll always put it to the side,
i'll always want you to be okay,
i'll always want you to,
I've always wanted to die,
living, loving, lessons and lies,
family trauma,
tripping all my ******* life,
killing myself so my feelings don't lie,
living just to try,
too hard to believe that my life is mine.
May 2
May 2, 2026 at 12:53 AM UTC
no part of this,
was ever going to be perfect.
life will always be slightly divergent,
only to return with gray hairs,
carrying shepherds of fear behind it,
always tugging on your outlines,
only you can decide what stays in.
May 2
May 2, 2026 at 12:39 AM UTC
it was a lifetime ago.
a kiss during isle of dogs,
looking for a nicotine device,
it was my birthday.
fantastic mr. fox,
laid my head on your lap,
my legs went numb,
while we watched what you loved,
spinning endlessly in your gravity.
i was too flawed to land,
so i didn't, while you flew away.
May 2
May 2, 2026 at 12:35 AM UTC