I’m depressed
I feel this constant pressure on my chest
Like I’m unable to exhale,
My body is starting to fail
My head is spinning,
My ears are ringing,
What is wrong?
I wish I knew
I’m feeling so blue.
Feeling blue, seeing blue
What does it sound like?
I don’t have a clue
I wish I was synesthetic
My ambitions, they’re so pathetic
Just want to somehow understand
Life is so bland, barely able to even stand
I am desperate for a sensation, anything
But instead my mind’s abandoning
Everything, my personality
It’s reaching its fatality
This abnormality in my mentality
Is eating me from within
Maybe I’ll just let it win
I just want to feel special
I just want to feel normal
I just want to feel.
I breathe, yet I’m not alive
Still going but I barely survive
I see, yet I’m blind
I keep fighting with my mind
I touch, yet I don’t feel
Barely even recognize what is real
I hang out in my mind all day,
The only place I find a way
A way to cope, but still suffer
I really need to find a new way to discover
How I need to handle this,
My brain shouldn’t be down in this abyss
I feel like I’m alone at sea
Completely isolated, nobody’s looking for me
The sky, the water, my mind- all blue
I don’t understand what I ever did to You
To deserve this kind of torture,
No lesson to be learned
“Oh no, I’m fine- no need to be concerned.”
It’s like it’s impossible to speak about,
I lie as if I expect a drought
Concerning the entire ocean
The only way I’ll ever get away,
Away from my emotion
I’m depressed
I feel this constant pressure on my chest
Like I’m unable to inhale,
My body is starting to fail
My head is ringing,
My eyes are spinning,
What is wrong?
I wish I knew
I’m feeling so blue.
I’ll keep swimming, not yet seeing a horizon
I know this is ridiculous, but help me please Poseidon
Just help me out, nobody else will
Only one request you need to fulfill
Let me live, don’t swallow me whole
At least don’t eat away at my soul
I keep fighting through these waves
Slowly passing all these graves
Of the ones that fought before me
Wait, impossible, I finally see
A figure above the water,
A hand reaching out to the author
He wants to take it, more than anything
But he stops, and lets himself sink
To the bottom of the mighty sea
In a moment he’ll finally be free
The water fills his lungs,
It’s time to say goodbye
At least like this you can’t see him cry
Instead a sigh is all you’ll ever see
As he drowns, leaving like a nobody
Not a single soul will miss him
And not a single soul he’ll miss
That’s a lie- he only left the abyss
He leaves with regret, hating this choice
He’ll never hear another voice
Never hear anything anymore
Now he reaches the ocean floor
He’ll lay there forever
He’s still here,
This wasn’t clever whatsoever
Please just shut down for good,
Come on, you really should
Rid me of the pain, the lack of colour
Rid me of all of it, brother
For now I just lay here, in this blue abyss.
Hearing nothing, the only sound I dismiss
It’s that of my heartbeat, I despise it
But somehow I’m glad too,
I have to admit.
Feb 5, 2018
Feb 5, 2018 at 7:29 PM UTC
I’m depressed
I feel this constant pressure on my chest
Like I’m unable to exhale,
My body is starting to fail
My head is spinning,
My ears are ringing,
What is wrong?
I wish I knew
I’m feeling so blue.
Feeling blue, seeing blue
What does it sound like?
I don’t have a clue
I wish I was synesthetic
My ambitions, they’re so pathetic
Just want to somehow understand
Life is so bland, barely able to even stand
I am desperate for a sensation, anything
But instead my mind’s abandoning
Everything, my personality
It’s reaching its fatality
This abnormality in my mentality
Is eating me from within
Maybe I’ll just let it win
I just want to feel special
I just want to feel normal
I just want to feel.
I breathe, yet I’m not alive
Still going but I barely survive
I see, yet I’m blind
I keep fighting with my mind
I touch, yet I don’t feel
Barely even recognize what is real
I hang out in my mind all day,
The only place I find a way
A way to cope, but still suffer
I really need to find a new way to discover
How I need to handle this,
My brain shouldn’t be down in this abyss
I feel like I’m alone at sea
Completely isolated, nobody’s looking for me
The sky, the water, my mind- all blue
I don’t understand what I ever did to You
To deserve this kind of torture,
No lesson to be learned
“Oh no, I’m fine- no need to be concerned.”
It’s like it’s impossible to speak about,
I lie as if I expect a drought
Concerning the entire ocean
The only way I’ll ever get away,
Away from my emotion
I’m depressed
I feel this constant pressure on my chest
Like I’m unable to inhale,
My body is starting to fail
My head is ringing,
My eyes are spinning,
What is wrong?
I wish I knew
I’m feeling so blue.
I’ll keep swimming, not yet seeing a horizon
I know this is ridiculous, but help me please Poseidon
Just help me out, nobody else will
Only one request you need to fulfill
Let me live, don’t swallow me whole
At least don’t eat away at my soul
I keep fighting through these waves
Slowly passing all these graves
Of the ones that fought before me
Wait, impossible, I finally see
A figure above the water,
A hand reaching out to the author
He wants to take it, more than anything
But he stops, and lets himself sink
To the bottom of the mighty sea
In a moment he’ll finally be free
The water fills his lungs,
It’s time to say goodbye
At least like this you can’t see him cry
Instead a sigh is all you’ll ever see
As he drowns, leaving like a nobody
Not a single soul will miss him
And not a single soul he’ll miss
That’s a lie- he only left the abyss
He leaves with regret, hating this choice
He’ll never hear another voice
Never hear anything anymore
Now he reaches the ocean floor
He’ll lay there forever
He’s still here,
This wasn’t clever whatsoever
Please just shut down for good,
Come on, you really should
Rid me of the pain, the lack of colour
Rid me of all of it, brother
For now I just lay here, in this blue abyss.
Hearing nothing, the only sound I dismiss
It’s that of my heartbeat, I despise it
But somehow I’m glad too,
I have to admit.
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