I started playing with a monster once
It used to always answer my calls,
And it was strong and promised to protect me,
It showed me anger is a feeling that sets free,
We used to fantasize about wars,
How we would eliminate the root cause,
And then it showed me evil everywhere,
Even in movies about which I once cared,
It started talking about heavy plans,
It said we should stop playing this game of pretense,
We should be more careful - even with our loved ones,
And slowly it had me between its big claws,
"Trust me, I'm your only true friend"- it replied,
Whenever I questioned its envious mind,
"The others, they never cared for you really"
It said to me and smiled very silly...
I was though naive and bought into lies,
I noticed the changes in my loved ones' eyes,
Ignoring the warmth in their voice, I withdrew,
Because I now embodied the monster's view,
I even stopped listening to them and myself,
My voice completely bogged down on the shelf,
And quickly I forgot what freedom meant,
As suddenly the monster became my best friend.
We kept on playing day in and day out,
My other friends stopped coming around,
It seemed that the monster had so many stories,
There was so much to discover these days,
Now I am awake and if I look back,
I have missed the moment to save my own back,
I got infiltrated by someone's bad life,
I got dominated and programmed to survive,
The monster's view lives in my mind
To this day, I'm looking for help to keep it away,
Perhaps it is hard to part ways after all,
It gave me an identity and I sold my soul,
But with proper help,
I can really try...
To set myself free
And say: Monster, Goodbye.
Jan 24
Jan 24, 2026 at 9:25 PM UTC
I started playing with a monster once
It used to always answer my calls,
And it was strong and promised to protect me,
It showed me anger is a feeling that sets free,
We used to fantasize about wars,
How we would eliminate the root cause,
And then it showed me evil everywhere,
Even in movies about which I once cared,
It started talking about heavy plans,
It said we should stop playing this game of pretense,
We should be more careful - even with our loved ones,
And slowly it had me between its big claws,
"Trust me, I'm your only true friend"- it replied,
Whenever I questioned its envious mind,
"The others, they never cared for you really"
It said to me and smiled very silly...
I was though naive and bought into lies,
I noticed the changes in my loved ones' eyes,
Ignoring the warmth in their voice, I withdrew,
Because I now embodied the monster's view,
I even stopped listening to them and myself,
My voice completely bogged down on the shelf,
And quickly I forgot what freedom meant,
As suddenly the monster became my best friend.
We kept on playing day in and day out,
My other friends stopped coming around,
It seemed that the monster had so many stories,
There was so much to discover these days,
Now I am awake and if I look back,
I have missed the moment to save my own back,
I got infiltrated by someone's bad life,
I got dominated and programmed to survive,
The monster's view lives in my mind
To this day, I'm looking for help to keep it away,
Perhaps it is hard to part ways after all,
It gave me an identity and I sold my soul,
But with proper help,
I can really try...
To set myself free
And say: Monster, Goodbye.
