. I was born with a defect.
It has a great impact.
One testacle, one less
Than everyone else.
I can't tell my partner.
She'll think less of me then.
Aren't they supposed to be a symbol
Of manliness? One less thimble
Of mass, results in a loss
Of ounces of courage,
And a weight of tonnes
On my shoulders.
I've been led into
Believing manhood is paramount.
Without it, I'm less of a person,
Less of a reason
To be whom I should; to be desired.
It's hard to stop thinking it
When it's you yourself telling it.
External influences become internal doctrine.
Inescapably real, incessantly there.
Loss of masculinity,
Yet retaining functionality.
It seems people never notice something's wrong
As long as you appear to act 'normally'.
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 5:02 PM UTC
. I was born with a defect.
It has a great impact.
One testacle, one less
Than everyone else.
I can't tell my partner.
She'll think less of me then.
Aren't they supposed to be a symbol
Of manliness? One less thimble
Of mass, results in a loss
Of ounces of courage,
And a weight of tonnes
On my shoulders.
I've been led into
Believing manhood is paramount.
Without it, I'm less of a person,
Less of a reason
To be whom I should; to be desired.
It's hard to stop thinking it
When it's you yourself telling it.
External influences become internal doctrine.
Inescapably real, incessantly there.
Loss of masculinity,
Yet retaining functionality.
It seems people never notice something's wrong
As long as you appear to act 'normally'.
This isn't my story to tell. I am still on the fence as to whether I should have written it. But it helps me to understand the people close to me when I use their perspectives in poems I write. Either way, here it is.