This time I'm not so manic
now its been a year since
we
talked
Its not like thats a bad thing
were both still alive
its not a good thing that
I keep track of days
by the divider for medication
It feels like no time at all
just blackout and wonder
what happened all those times
you scared me, so much
I couldn't hurt you like you wanted.
I remember vividly
when you were riding me
and asking what we could do
I said I could love you
and that wasn't enough
What more do you want from me?
Its yours.
I just need this settled- am I yours?
I know you are mine.
I put a spell on you before
We broke up in email
I regretted it instantly
I curse the modern hand of man
just for the separation I felt
from you , the moment we first talked
Down the hall
through text
I remember the first time your beauty
ever rendered me speechless
and the years that my broken heart
convinced my head to be alright.
Well I'm not. and
I dont know if you are alright
I just know what I want to know.
I want to know why,
failure to let go of what I know
I want to see again and again.
Maybe its all in how you disappear
But Ghostie - Here it is again
your beauty rendering me speechless
all in one picture that I thought
would be worth a million words.
Well it is, but us remains impossible.
Nov 6, 2013
Nov 6, 2013 at 12:36 AM UTC
This time I'm not so manic
now its been a year since
we
talked
Its not like thats a bad thing
were both still alive
its not a good thing that
I keep track of days
by the divider for medication
It feels like no time at all
just blackout and wonder
what happened all those times
you scared me, so much
I couldn't hurt you like you wanted.
I remember vividly
when you were riding me
and asking what we could do
I said I could love you
and that wasn't enough
What more do you want from me?
Its yours.
I just need this settled- am I yours?
I know you are mine.
I put a spell on you before
We broke up in email
I regretted it instantly
I curse the modern hand of man
just for the separation I felt
from you , the moment we first talked
Down the hall
through text
I remember the first time your beauty
ever rendered me speechless
and the years that my broken heart
convinced my head to be alright.
Well I'm not. and
I dont know if you are alright
I just know what I want to know.
I want to know why,
failure to let go of what I know
I want to see again and again.
Maybe its all in how you disappear
But Ghostie - Here it is again
your beauty rendering me speechless
all in one picture that I thought
would be worth a million words.
Well it is, but us remains impossible.
This world is not meant for us, babe sure ill beat you to death, if that is how you want to die, there is a light up there tonight, it shines on our skin , as we bleed together, and yet we keep drinking... us remains impossible to live
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