I cut last night
something I never do
now, anyways
I never cut
an old feeling came
I felt weak
nail digging didn't justify my emotions
I went for something sharper
a razor
5 blades
an arm is too obvious
I like to hide
I saw my hip bone
emerging from my skin
an invisible X lay across
waiting for me
I dug the razor in
pulled up quick
a chunk flew
blood surfaced
once more I dug
once more I bled
standing in the shower
water running down me
red
what I felt and what I saw
relief filled my mind
never regret
I began to smile
victory struck over me
maybe I will cut more often
I love this inner feeling
do not judge
or simply do not read
the pain brings the calm
it makes me feel free
Sep 10, 2013
Sep 10, 2013 at 10:32 PM UTC
I cut last night
something I never do
now, anyways
I never cut
an old feeling came
I felt weak
nail digging didn't justify my emotions
I went for something sharper
a razor
5 blades
an arm is too obvious
I like to hide
I saw my hip bone
emerging from my skin
an invisible X lay across
waiting for me
I dug the razor in
pulled up quick
a chunk flew
blood surfaced
once more I dug
once more I bled
standing in the shower
water running down me
red
what I felt and what I saw
relief filled my mind
never regret
I began to smile
victory struck over me
maybe I will cut more often
I love this inner feeling
do not judge
or simply do not read
the pain brings the calm
it makes me feel free
