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I made a playlist the other week It bleeds with the sound of us All those songs you loved Whether I liked them or not I listen to them every night Crying myself to sleep through this pain Anyone would think I'm crazy To keep doing this to myself But the songs echo in my brain Whether they play out loud or not And I shouldn't get to live freely After hurting you so badly So I'll slowly **** myself with this sadness And the physical pain of this heartbreak My chest aches And my lungs scream These sobs choke every last breath And the sounds send me away Lost in the memories of us: Driving in your car across the bridge listening to the Killers Up in your town for Christmas vibing to Grace VanderWaal Singing different parts to the acapella beauty of Pentatonix Rocking along to the song we said we'd sing at our wedding I'm afraid that I can't face life without you I'm afraid of myself And I'm afraid for it to snow Because then the memories won't be just in my head You'll be everywhere More than you already are And I could be dead.
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Nov 7, 2017
Nov 7, 2017 at 3:57 AM UTC
Nightly Breakdowns (Letters to My Ex-Fiancé #4)
I made a playlist the other week It bleeds with the sound of us All those songs you loved Whether I liked them or not I listen to them every night Crying myself to sleep through this pain Anyone would think I'm crazy To keep doing this to myself But the songs echo in my brain Whether they play out loud or not And I shouldn't get to live freely After hurting you so badly So I'll slowly **** myself with this sadness And the physical pain of this heartbreak My chest aches And my lungs scream These sobs choke every last breath And the sounds send me away Lost in the memories of us: Driving in your car across the bridge listening to the Killers Up in your town for Christmas vibing to Grace VanderWaal Singing different parts to the acapella beauty of Pentatonix Rocking along to the song we said we'd sing at our wedding I'm afraid that I can't face life without you I'm afraid of myself And I'm afraid for it to snow Because then the memories won't be just in my head You'll be everywhere More than you already are And I could be dead.
Playlist: Little Do You Know A Girl, a Boy, and a Graveyard Floral and Fading Bad Things White Winter Hymnal Mr. Brightside Shadowplay I Don't Know My Name Beautiful Thing Clay Light the Sky Gossip Girl
#love#music#ex#heartache#heartbroken#lost#pain#relationships#queer#lgbt
Nicol-g
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Nicol-g
29/Non-binary
Nov 7, 2017
Nov 7, 2017 at 3:57 AM UTC
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