he eschewed the label,
“Native American,” for he was *****
and he wasn't ashamed he liked his spirits
dollar wine worked as well
cirrhosis was a family trait
though he didn't learn the word until an army doc
admonished him, saying he would earn the curse
by 45, if he kept it up
and he did, even more after that crazy
Asian war, where he killed a half dozen men
they called yellow, though to Walter, they looked
to be his emaciated brown cousins
he could stand tall, straight
with a pint of rot gut in him, burning
his belly, but not causing his head to spin
though it helped him block them out:
those he did not know; those he
slaughtered like lambs with the gun they issued him;
those who inhabited a space just behind his eyes
whenever they closed, night or day
someone found him, in his pickup bed
dead from exposure, from too many years
on the bottle, too many dreams he tried to drown
and too many ghosts to haunt his nights
Gallup, New Mexico, 1999
Jul 6, 2016
Jul 6, 2016 at 3:23 PM UTC
he eschewed the label,
“Native American,” for he was *****
and he wasn't ashamed he liked his spirits
dollar wine worked as well
cirrhosis was a family trait
though he didn't learn the word until an army doc
admonished him, saying he would earn the curse
by 45, if he kept it up
and he did, even more after that crazy
Asian war, where he killed a half dozen men
they called yellow, though to Walter, they looked
to be his emaciated brown cousins
he could stand tall, straight
with a pint of rot gut in him, burning
his belly, but not causing his head to spin
though it helped him block them out:
those he did not know; those he
slaughtered like lambs with the gun they issued him;
those who inhabited a space just behind his eyes
whenever they closed, night or day
someone found him, in his pickup bed
dead from exposure, from too many years
on the bottle, too many dreams he tried to drown
and too many ghosts to haunt his nights
Gallup, New Mexico, 1999
part of a series, "Other Obits" in which I write about those who passed--those whose names and stories I conjure from my own space behind my eyes--though doubtless they are real, in life and death
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