What do you want me to say?

Bitter_sweet-Letters17 Poems

Slurred words Thoughts like restless birds Inhaling the poison that You know makes him Different Its okay though An easieness blankets the nerves Because you know how to use your words He loves you , he wants you, he needs you The idea of an idle car Being made to rumble Knowing very well then Not only him but others would tumble You can’t let him leave You love him, you need him, you want him You reach out, tragic actions And the poison starts to create reactions. Dizzy minded on the floor, You have to block the bathroom door He will die and its okay That you put yourself as the price to pay He reaches up And removes the light Bulb. Its dark and you gulp, hearing the screaming The slamming next to your ears Its All you can hear between heavy breathing Is its okay you won't hurt me You need me. The door flies open, Youre on the floor You can't let him leave Angry and drunk You plead please You know that car wont make it back And that his goal is to Crash. You grab his arm once more You can't let him walk through that front door He will die. And then what are you? To allow him to lose his life? Because you pushed him over the edge All Because of one small thing Offering an uber towards his friend So hed be safe going home So the drinking night could soon end You hold on as long as possible, Because although hes hostle You want him safe, Finally the payment will be paid You feel the hands grip your skull Pounding. Pounding. Loud thuds As your head hits the dryer But you can't feel the pain You can barely see But its okay He wont hurt you Please not today. Youre dragged across the hallway Floor. Hes 10 more steps nearer to the Door. You feel a pressure , it's okay As the corner of the hallway Wall Slams into your waist. 4 steps nearer to that door To that vehicle That he briefly mentioned earlier Before he drank some more You hear a knock at the front He hears it too Youre at the stairs Because if he decents You know youll never see him again He pushes you once, you keep A . one. hand. grip. And he pushes you once more But this time You fall backwards, Down those steps Towards the floor. Your ears are ringing Its okay When you look up Hes not fazed He went to the room Hes safe for today His life costed your mind A fitting price to pay. You answer the door Its police Luckily they didn't see you just roll down Or your bruised knees. You make them leave Because he keeps screaming Let them near and Then theyll be bleeding. You can't make things worse, you already have Maybe someday you can shake this off Maybe laugh. Hours pass, and youre outside his room door Begging on the floor Let me in im sorry Please I just wanted you Safe. Youre allowed in, and greeted with a knife That isnt him, not in those eyes You lay in bed as you watch him sleep You wonder, Why Did you deserve this, because you couldn't let him Die? You stay awake, scared to not have Your eyes Wide Because you already know That he has that knife. Morning comes and your body hurts But nothing compares to the empty Words Please look You beg, to see some sympathy for What he did, so sim-pl-y He sees the purple, the black, the blood But its like it was swept under a rug "What do you want me to say" Nothing. Everything. Something. Its too late