I shake and people worry
I pretend I'm normal and okay
but inside I'm dead
and while I have my normal mask on
they treat me like I am a person
not some depressed, psychopath
when I am normal to them
they hug me and this feels like ants
they touch my shoulder i shutter
it all fuels my anxiety
my leg begins to shake
my mind begins to race
I hear every noise in the crowed
it fuels it from
the sniffle to
the bobby pin that fell out of her hair
the world is so loud
the words in the world come to me so negatively
maybes gives me no hope
when people tell me I'm alright
**** when I tell myself I'm okay and I'm not
laughter makes me want to give up on every thing
its the one thing I would give the world to do again
is real laughter
a smile that is not fake
because I know that I'm broken
when people think I'm normal it scares me
and i don't know how normal people do it
Oct 4, 2018
Oct 4, 2018 at 4:04 PM UTC
I shake and people worry
I pretend I'm normal and okay
but inside I'm dead
and while I have my normal mask on
they treat me like I am a person
not some depressed, psychopath
when I am normal to them
they hug me and this feels like ants
they touch my shoulder i shutter
it all fuels my anxiety
my leg begins to shake
my mind begins to race
I hear every noise in the crowed
it fuels it from
the sniffle to
the bobby pin that fell out of her hair
the world is so loud
the words in the world come to me so negatively
maybes gives me no hope
when people tell me I'm alright
**** when I tell myself I'm okay and I'm not
laughter makes me want to give up on every thing
its the one thing I would give the world to do again
is real laughter
a smile that is not fake
because I know that I'm broken
when people think I'm normal it scares me
and i don't know how normal people do it
I don't know how to feel but I feel bad