I've chewed my fingernails
I've watched every series
I've thrown out every hope of going back to school
I've chewed my fingernails
I've tried baking
I've tried walking
I've tried watching movies I only get half way through
I've tried not thinking about how many days we have left
I've chewed my fingernails
I've tried sleep but I sleep to much and thats not healthy
I've tried it feels like everything
I've chewed my fingernails until they bled and are ugly
I've tried accepting this whole thing but I feel stuck
Mar 27, 2020
Mar 27, 2020 at 12:59 PM UTC
I want you to like me
I don't know if it's me of if it's that I want to be dating your daughter
I want to be perfect
To never stumble
but I will
I want them to know
I want the best for her too
I want her to smile
And if that means I'm not there
I get it
But I'm not bad I got better
I'm not the same person I was
I've changed
If I could only show you
I'm different
Nov 27, 2019
Nov 27, 2019 at 1:55 PM UTC
I miss you every day
You were my first
And you were right for me
You gave me so much love
And I miss it every **** day
My situation was bad
And I tried so hard
And then I broke
I got hurt so I pushed you
as far away as possible
Because I didn't want to hurt you more
And I didn't want to get hurt
And I was dealing with so much loss
I didn't realize how much you meant to me
But you grounded me
You helped me so much and saved my life
You were one of the only ones who cared
But by the time I realized it it was to late
But god you are the one person
who makes me so happy
I do want to talk
Even if that's all we can do right now
You are my human
Nov 2, 2019
Nov 2, 2019 at 12:47 AM UTC
they say be original
to be you
to not change or stray from the light within
but god that is **** hard
like I want to be a great person
one that I like
but what dose "be me" even mean
I get that we are all born original
and we don't want to die being a copy
but what if I want to copy the great people out there
be kind
be smart
how would I learn if I didn't copy little things every day
from the hair styles to the single smile
I want to be like a collage
some one who builds myself
take something out of everything
maybe we need to stop trying to be original and impress
start trying to look at others and
admire the great things that already exist
Aug 20, 2019
Aug 20, 2019 at 9:31 AM UTC
I've kept every letter
Every poem
Your special I want you to know
No matter what you go through
you are so strong
Strong and amazing
I made a mistake
pushing you away
You saved my life
In the most litteral of of terms
I've been blade to skin
was taking my final thoughts
I imagined me hurting you by leaving
And I stopped
And cried
About how sad I would be if you left
My moon and stars would fade
Because I loved every spec of your being
And I wanted to be yours
And I ****** it up
You did nothing wrong
my sick brain got so turned around
I pushed you away I
just want for you to be
Fulfilled by your own life
And not self injure
And not die
I want you here
Even if here is with someone else
Jul 4, 2019
Jul 4, 2019 at 10:29 PM UTC
I miss them and there beautiful self
I miss the notes
I miss the hugs
I miss the light kisses
I miss the conversation
I miss us
I just don't know if you miss me
Mar 26, 2019
Mar 26, 2019 at 12:40 PM UTC
I'm mentally sick
not physically ill
when you have the flu you get to stay home
but when your mental health is
shaking
cutting
crying
it is seen as weak
or broken
so what I want to tell people is
I'm sick
I don't feel well
and they start to morph together
mentally and physically ill
Nov 18, 2018
Nov 18, 2018 at 8:54 PM UTC
We all make our own choices.
We all want different things.
But inside,
We are all the same.
We all hurt.
We all cry.
We all make mistakes.
We all forget.
We've all gotten hurt before
And we've all hurt someone.
We may seem different,
But we all bleed red.
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 6:30 PM UTC
I feel at peace
I feel warm
even in snow
or rain
nature is little bits of bliss
and peaceful noise
like rain on a lake
wind in trees
this is the first time in a while
that I have felt peace
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 6:20 PM UTC
i have a project and it needs to be done
but instead i'm depressed and anxious
and instead I shake
and i scare myself i shake so violently
because of noises
and feeling
and senses
i just get a sensory over load
Nov 3, 2018
Nov 3, 2018 at 4:16 PM UTC