When you left my house
I almost offered you a receipt
Because you left me like
Tourists leave a hotel room
I look back now and
Know why I lost so much weight
I was trying to make more room for you
So that you could fill me with your love,
I thought
Really, I just made it that much easier
For you to rip my heart out
Without even rolling up your sleeves
It was that easy
“Going to stay with a friend”
Felt like you stole the kingdom’s
Jewels and left.
That’s why I stay up so late
I’ve realized that it’s always when I let you in
That you let yourself out the door
So I fall “in love” with
Grindr profiles that remind me of
Pieces of us that I’m still picking up
Sorting out which pieces go to which
Of our puzzles
I just wish I could tell myself
Apart from you
I’ve inhaled so much of you
Like the smoke that burnt
Every time we touched
It had to be that way
Because I was playing with fire
And I didn’t realize that
We may as well have been
Slow dancing in a burning room
I write letters to you that I’ll never mail
In secret languages, I tell you how stupid we both are
Knowing **** well that what I’m really saying is
That parts of me are still confused
Confused as to whether or not you actually
Ever loved me or if
I was more like the lab specimens
We hung out with
I want to be the fire that burns
Against the skin of lovers who speak in secret tongues
Not in notes I tear up in the dark
But in gasps and croaks
Instead of croaking
Like another dissection frog
You experimented with:
**Even though you earned an A for your work,
I failed you because you never appreciated the class**
Jul 26, 2014
Jul 26, 2014 at 5:25 AM UTC
When you left my house
I almost offered you a receipt
Because you left me like
Tourists leave a hotel room
I look back now and
Know why I lost so much weight
I was trying to make more room for you
So that you could fill me with your love,
I thought
Really, I just made it that much easier
For you to rip my heart out
Without even rolling up your sleeves
It was that easy
“Going to stay with a friend”
Felt like you stole the kingdom’s
Jewels and left.
That’s why I stay up so late
I’ve realized that it’s always when I let you in
That you let yourself out the door
So I fall “in love” with
Grindr profiles that remind me of
Pieces of us that I’m still picking up
Sorting out which pieces go to which
Of our puzzles
I just wish I could tell myself
Apart from you
I’ve inhaled so much of you
Like the smoke that burnt
Every time we touched
It had to be that way
Because I was playing with fire
And I didn’t realize that
We may as well have been
Slow dancing in a burning room
I write letters to you that I’ll never mail
In secret languages, I tell you how stupid we both are
Knowing **** well that what I’m really saying is
That parts of me are still confused
Confused as to whether or not you actually
Ever loved me or if
I was more like the lab specimens
We hung out with
I want to be the fire that burns
Against the skin of lovers who speak in secret tongues
Not in notes I tear up in the dark
But in gasps and croaks
Instead of croaking
Like another dissection frog
You experimented with:
**Even though you earned an A for your work,
I failed you because you never appreciated the class**
