I don't know where I'm coming from,
feeling this feeling of wanting you.
I don't know why I kept on bugging myself and asking myself how are you even if we both know that you're with someone else now.
Why I kept on blocking then unblocking you over and over again,
why am I still in love with you.
Maybe because,
yes, I am still into you,
even if you're no longer with me.
and it feels like a happy new year during grieving days.
happy holidays on your wedding day.
and it feels like,
oh God, please.
Give me more strength to fight all the pain that caused me to hate myself more for being not enough.
hating myself for not fighting,
hating myself for letting you to just go,
leave with no words,
leave with no nothing,
hating myself cause I kept on blaming myself and
asking myself, why
why all these things happen
and all the answer leads me to go back to you,
and simply reminding myself,
"You've loved him more than what you can give and you left nothing for yourself so don't ask why".
You are enough,
but he didn't bother appreciating you for who you are
and it's ok.
Honey, it's ok,
you can still be who you are,
Love anyone you want
and let Love destroy you
and mold you over and over again.
Let love be the answer to all your hates,
to all you're anxiety,
and to all your hopes, dreams, and your future.
Let love in and let her do the job for you.
Let love in.
**
Jan 25, 2019
Jan 25, 2019 at 12:00 AM UTC
I don't know where I'm coming from,
feeling this feeling of wanting you.
I don't know why I kept on bugging myself and asking myself how are you even if we both know that you're with someone else now.
Why I kept on blocking then unblocking you over and over again,
why am I still in love with you.
Maybe because,
yes, I am still into you,
even if you're no longer with me.
and it feels like a happy new year during grieving days.
happy holidays on your wedding day.
and it feels like,
oh God, please.
Give me more strength to fight all the pain that caused me to hate myself more for being not enough.
hating myself for not fighting,
hating myself for letting you to just go,
leave with no words,
leave with no nothing,
hating myself cause I kept on blaming myself and
asking myself, why
why all these things happen
and all the answer leads me to go back to you,
and simply reminding myself,
"You've loved him more than what you can give and you left nothing for yourself so don't ask why".
You are enough,
but he didn't bother appreciating you for who you are
and it's ok.
Honey, it's ok,
you can still be who you are,
Love anyone you want
and let Love destroy you
and mold you over and over again.
Let love be the answer to all your hates,
to all you're anxiety,
and to all your hopes, dreams, and your future.
Let love in and let her do the job for you.
Let love in.
**
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