I tried so hard to hide the pain.
Plastered on the smile.
Laughed a perfect laugh.
That never reached the eyes.
Kept it hidden for a year and a half.
Finally confided in my friends and sister.
Got really good at lying.
Almost became reality.
I never lied to those I confided in though, my sister and friends.
I continued to downplay what I was going through.
The pain.
The hopelessness.
I'm crying myself to sleep every night.
No adult knows.
I'm good at pretending.
The cuts.
The blood.
The scars left behind.
The two attempts to leave it all behind.
The secrets.
The hiding.
Too much to handle.
I tried and failed to overcome it.
The third is soon to come.
It feels like a black hole that ***** you in with no escape.
Is there an escape?
Not for me.
Still struggling everyday.
I can’t do it anymore.
I tried.
I’m done.
GOODBYE???
2d ago
May 31, 2026 at 8:03 PM UTC
I tried so hard to hide the pain.
Plastered on the smile.
Laughed a perfect laugh.
That never reached the eyes.
Kept it hidden for a year and a half.
Finally confided in my friends and sister.
Got really good at lying.
Almost became reality.
I never lied to those I confided in though, my sister and friends.
I continued to downplay what I was going through.
The pain.
The hopelessness.
I'm crying myself to sleep every night.
No adult knows.
I'm good at pretending.
The cuts.
The blood.
The scars left behind.
The two attempts to leave it all behind.
The secrets.
The hiding.
Too much to handle.
I tried and failed to overcome it.
The third is soon to come.
It feels like a black hole that ***** you in with no escape.
Is there an escape?
Not for me.
Still struggling everyday.
I can’t do it anymore.
I tried.
I’m done.
GOODBYE???
(NOT TRUE ANYMORE! I AM BETTER NOW!)