i hold you in my hands
i twirl you between my fingers
long and slender
on fire
i inhale you
i blow you out
invisible upon first encounter
but a smokey exit
sometimes i am clumsy
and i forget to tap you
into the ashtray
around which my life has formed
as the ash rolls off
i anxiously attempt to gather
then i remember
that you are no longer
no longer a solid being
but instead
a fragile reminder
something i can not contain
but really
i never could
and yet
i cant stop myself
from trying
again and again
to gather you up
to make you whole again
i still sit here
smoking you
and wondering
will you come home first
or will i force my homecoming
Mar 23, 2015
Mar 23, 2015 at 2:24 AM UTC
i hold you in my hands
i twirl you between my fingers
long and slender
on fire
i inhale you
i blow you out
invisible upon first encounter
but a smokey exit
sometimes i am clumsy
and i forget to tap you
into the ashtray
around which my life has formed
as the ash rolls off
i anxiously attempt to gather
then i remember
that you are no longer
no longer a solid being
but instead
a fragile reminder
something i can not contain
but really
i never could
and yet
i cant stop myself
from trying
again and again
to gather you up
to make you whole again
i still sit here
smoking you
and wondering
will you come home first
or will i force my homecoming
you're a cigarette
and i'm just a hopeless heart broken romantic
