yeah
i lied
so what?
it was to keep them safe
all of them
i let them know
that it wasn't about me
i think i edited it
just in time, in fact
because so many people
have tried committing
the two i'm thinking of now were
so
d a m n
close
i was going to lose it
i wasn't even CLOSE
i only had a mere fraction
of what they had
they're going to wonder why i published them
and took them down so quickly
and i won't have the energy to explain
i still can't believe this is the closest i've gotten
it's horrible that part of me
sees this as an accomplishment
i want to throw up because of that thought
or maybe it was because of what i did
or tried to do
bad timing
i probably won't even throw up
i don't know anymore
i don't deserve this
i don't deserve
any
of this
Why couldn't I follow through?
May 11
May 11, 2026 at 9:47 PM UTC
yeah
i lied
so what?
it was to keep them safe
all of them
i let them know
that it wasn't about me
i think i edited it
just in time, in fact
because so many people
have tried committing
the two i'm thinking of now were
so
d a m n
close
i was going to lose it
i wasn't even CLOSE
i only had a mere fraction
of what they had
they're going to wonder why i published them
and took them down so quickly
and i won't have the energy to explain
i still can't believe this is the closest i've gotten
it's horrible that part of me
sees this as an accomplishment
i want to throw up because of that thought
or maybe it was because of what i did
or tried to do
bad timing
i probably won't even throw up
i don't know anymore
i don't deserve this
i don't deserve
any
of this
Why couldn't I follow through?
there's context to this, and this isn't much of a poem anyway, so I guess it doesn't really matter.
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