The hardest part of living
Having to face the past each day
No matter where I look here it's there
Impossible to get away
This town teems with memories
Of our favorite places
Plagued by overflowing mental holograms
Ghosts we left as traces
I cannot forget the laughter
Nights stayed up too late
Who knew all was wasted?
Happiness was not our fate
These roads we have walked a thousand times
Striding arm-in-arm or hand-in-hand
Traveling them alone is a concept I hate
Grown to understand
It was yesterday it seems
Hand was free from chains
Regret imprisons my body and mind
Eternally haunted by what remains
Lost the comfort of a monotonous routine
Contradictory emotions I thinly hide
Was naive to believe all the walls I put up
Shut out but not shut me inside
The war between fear and hope
A battle I fight every day
Out of shape
Out of breath from sparring
Pretend I am okay
But know my "Fine" is only a facade
I will cry when I'm alone
Convincing myself pain will one day end
How can it end if I'm doing it on my own?
And if I did ask for help
Choose to send an SOS
There is no guarantee for an easier life
I would just be bringing somebody more stress
So bear the explosions as best as I can
My frozen soul I long to surrender
With an army of regrets I strive to forget
Must be losing-because I still remember
Dec 31, 2019
Dec 31, 2019 at 2:28 PM UTC
The hardest part of living
Having to face the past each day
No matter where I look here it's there
Impossible to get away
This town teems with memories
Of our favorite places
Plagued by overflowing mental holograms
Ghosts we left as traces
I cannot forget the laughter
Nights stayed up too late
Who knew all was wasted?
Happiness was not our fate
These roads we have walked a thousand times
Striding arm-in-arm or hand-in-hand
Traveling them alone is a concept I hate
Grown to understand
It was yesterday it seems
Hand was free from chains
Regret imprisons my body and mind
Eternally haunted by what remains
Lost the comfort of a monotonous routine
Contradictory emotions I thinly hide
Was naive to believe all the walls I put up
Shut out but not shut me inside
The war between fear and hope
A battle I fight every day
Out of shape
Out of breath from sparring
Pretend I am okay
But know my "Fine" is only a facade
I will cry when I'm alone
Convincing myself pain will one day end
How can it end if I'm doing it on my own?
And if I did ask for help
Choose to send an SOS
There is no guarantee for an easier life
I would just be bringing somebody more stress
So bear the explosions as best as I can
My frozen soul I long to surrender
With an army of regrets I strive to forget
Must be losing-because I still remember
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