She told me I was special
I never felt it in her actions
She told me I was chosen
She had personally chosen me over everyone
I felt her fear beneath it
They put me on a pedestal
Only to topple
The fall… my heart shattered to pieces
A building so tall with unknown foundation
A building so narrow with no space,
I have to be unmoveable, unbreatheable, unshakeable
I was to be the standard, the benchmark, the chosen awaited one
I stand tall on top of this tower
With no real connection
I stand to be some trophy, a plastic doll
Making a mistake is unacceptable
If I choose to be a human I am unloveable
The pedestal is a trap
It’s a prison - of servitude
I serve - they praise, they throne me
I demand freedom, speak aloud, express, have feelings
I am flawed, depressed, need medications
They instantaneously dethrone me
But now I am something to fumigate
Once they called me princess.
However unbearable, I bonded with this pedestal
Thought I wasn’t capable for the role
Afraid another girl would inherit the throne
Now I fear she will walk my path
May 9
May 9, 2026 at 5:49 PM UTC
She told me I was special
I never felt it in her actions
She told me I was chosen
She had personally chosen me over everyone
I felt her fear beneath it
They put me on a pedestal
Only to topple
The fall… my heart shattered to pieces
A building so tall with unknown foundation
A building so narrow with no space,
I have to be unmoveable, unbreatheable, unshakeable
I was to be the standard, the benchmark, the chosen awaited one
I stand tall on top of this tower
With no real connection
I stand to be some trophy, a plastic doll
Making a mistake is unacceptable
If I choose to be a human I am unloveable
The pedestal is a trap
It’s a prison - of servitude
I serve - they praise, they throne me
I demand freedom, speak aloud, express, have feelings
I am flawed, depressed, need medications
They instantaneously dethrone me
But now I am something to fumigate
Once they called me princess.
However unbearable, I bonded with this pedestal
Thought I wasn’t capable for the role
Afraid another girl would inherit the throne
Now I fear she will walk my path
Being placed on a pedestal feels like honor. It isn't. It's just a higher place to fall from.