The first time
I lost my mind,
The world seemed a destitute place.
The first time
I took it by force.
Left to fend with fiends
Furrowing through time,
Clawing at the day,
Dragging myself against the pull.
Life,
The introduction to
Something dark and true.
The second time!
I could stand no more
Of what I found before
Did not mean to come back,
Sometimes I think I didn’t,
Mulling in a mood grey and grave
The blue sky,
Once bubbly
Now looks blander
Circle of red.
Head of lead.
Lying in my bed.
The third
barely touched
Just scraped at chalk.
After that, I went away…
Opted out.
Nothing mattered.
There I sat in limbo.
Soured.
Dissasociated
Like an old car,
I sputtered,
Bore sitting and rusting.
Consumed.
Floating
Dead-eyed.
And how I laugh,
To say
That I am less
How I laugh-
To say that I am dying
To think that I am sloth
Sloth?
I am greed.
I am pride.
I am failure,
I am afraid-
Of everything.
I died some time ago,
Left company
Alone
So now I am back in the game.
And enigmatic.
Do I scare you?
Because I should.
I am terrifying
And cant be intimidated
I do not fear death,
I do not fear reprobation
But honestly?
I scare my self
And I am afraid of you too,
Fear is my super power.
Depression is my identity,
Something personal to me,
So-
So Welcome death,
Welcome fear!
Welcome Might.
You can’t comprehend me,
What it is to be free,
You have never died
Never writhed,
In fire,
You circuit.
I shan’t come out tonight,
Or any other
Night
But stand afront,
With twisted mind, bald and blunt
And I shall eat you…
That look-
Look down
Disgust
Divert your eyes,
But stand in my way,
And I shall eat you
Your eyes-
Coal,
Fresh grass
Red light
Yellow filter
Green eyes
Pain defies
Lies
Anguish flies
Panic stricken,
Anxiety driven
Rapture.
Quick- Look down now,
Holding back the wrath of Jessu,
This mouse will ******* eat you!
Jul 30, 2019
Jul 30, 2019 at 3:58 PM UTC
The first time
I lost my mind,
The world seemed a destitute place.
The first time
I took it by force.
Left to fend with fiends
Furrowing through time,
Clawing at the day,
Dragging myself against the pull.
Life,
The introduction to
Something dark and true.
The second time!
I could stand no more
Of what I found before
Did not mean to come back,
Sometimes I think I didn’t,
Mulling in a mood grey and grave
The blue sky,
Once bubbly
Now looks blander
Circle of red.
Head of lead.
Lying in my bed.
The third
barely touched
Just scraped at chalk.
After that, I went away…
Opted out.
Nothing mattered.
There I sat in limbo.
Soured.
Dissasociated
Like an old car,
I sputtered,
Bore sitting and rusting.
Consumed.
Floating
Dead-eyed.
And how I laugh,
To say
That I am less
How I laugh-
To say that I am dying
To think that I am sloth
Sloth?
I am greed.
I am pride.
I am failure,
I am afraid-
Of everything.
I died some time ago,
Left company
Alone
So now I am back in the game.
And enigmatic.
Do I scare you?
Because I should.
I am terrifying
And cant be intimidated
I do not fear death,
I do not fear reprobation
But honestly?
I scare my self
And I am afraid of you too,
Fear is my super power.
Depression is my identity,
Something personal to me,
So-
So Welcome death,
Welcome fear!
Welcome Might.
You can’t comprehend me,
What it is to be free,
You have never died
Never writhed,
In fire,
You circuit.
I shan’t come out tonight,
Or any other
Night
But stand afront,
With twisted mind, bald and blunt
And I shall eat you…
That look-
Look down
Disgust
Divert your eyes,
But stand in my way,
And I shall eat you
Your eyes-
Coal,
Fresh grass
Red light
Yellow filter
Green eyes
Pain defies
Lies
Anguish flies
Panic stricken,
Anxiety driven
Rapture.
Quick- Look down now,
Holding back the wrath of Jessu,
This mouse will ******* eat you!
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