Who I am, is not what I want to be,
Who I am, is someone that I can't see,
Who I am, is not who I want to be,
I am caged in self-doubt and spite,
Who I am, is someone I can't see,
Rooted in bad-habits, a rotten tree,
The fruit of my efforts poisonous,
Who I am, is not who I want to be.
Rockbottom, I've gone far below sea,
Drowning in regret, thoughts I circumvent,
Who I am, is someone I can't see,
When will I feel something? I plea,
Tired of feeling tired when I'm tired,
Who I am, is not who I want to be,
Me and self-love can't seem to agree,
And it isn't self-hate, just negligence,
Who I am, is someone I can't see,
This year has been tough on me,
Broke down my armour and stability
I've survived somehow miraculously
Broken and hurt, faced my problems,
Even if I did it a little haphazardly,
But I will change, I will change cause:
Who I am, is not who I want to be,
Who I am, is someone I can't see.
Nov 18, 2019
Nov 18, 2019 at 5:49 PM UTC
Who I am, is not what I want to be,
Who I am, is someone that I can't see,
Who I am, is not who I want to be,
I am caged in self-doubt and spite,
Who I am, is someone I can't see,
Rooted in bad-habits, a rotten tree,
The fruit of my efforts poisonous,
Who I am, is not who I want to be.
Rockbottom, I've gone far below sea,
Drowning in regret, thoughts I circumvent,
Who I am, is someone I can't see,
When will I feel something? I plea,
Tired of feeling tired when I'm tired,
Who I am, is not who I want to be,
Me and self-love can't seem to agree,
And it isn't self-hate, just negligence,
Who I am, is someone I can't see,
This year has been tough on me,
Broke down my armour and stability
I've survived somehow miraculously
Broken and hurt, faced my problems,
Even if I did it a little haphazardly,
But I will change, I will change cause:
Who I am, is not who I want to be,
Who I am, is someone I can't see.
Self reflection has shown me I don't like the person I am right now, and I am not depressed about it, just eager to start the process of change to who I imagine myself to be.