The weight of reality sits in my chest.
This is all beyond what my mind can comprehend.
How can it be gone if it's still here?
It wasn't perfect.
It left scars as I shed tears
No one ever saw either anyway.
Who am I? What have I become?
Is this all worth this path I walk on?
My pen is a knife,
Bloodletting across pages since I could hold it in my hands,
Since I know what it meant when shapes became words
And sentences became bought.
Now they won't stop
And I don't know how to let go
Again.
Every day is a new dance with grief,
Torn between remembering
And trying to piece together reality.
The pen pierces my heart.
It gushes new words onto paper with every beat
Words my mind and mouth are at a loss for
Words ears will never hear.
Even if they did, they're impossible to comprehend.
I write them anyway.
Just in case there's someone else out there
Crying alone in the shell of everything they've ever known
Trying to convince themselves it's worth it to inhale.
Oct 1, 2017
Oct 1, 2017 at 10:23 PM UTC
The weight of reality sits in my chest.
This is all beyond what my mind can comprehend.
How can it be gone if it's still here?
It wasn't perfect.
It left scars as I shed tears
No one ever saw either anyway.
Who am I? What have I become?
Is this all worth this path I walk on?
My pen is a knife,
Bloodletting across pages since I could hold it in my hands,
Since I know what it meant when shapes became words
And sentences became bought.
Now they won't stop
And I don't know how to let go
Again.
Every day is a new dance with grief,
Torn between remembering
And trying to piece together reality.
The pen pierces my heart.
It gushes new words onto paper with every beat
Words my mind and mouth are at a loss for
Words ears will never hear.
Even if they did, they're impossible to comprehend.
I write them anyway.
Just in case there's someone else out there
Crying alone in the shell of everything they've ever known
Trying to convince themselves it's worth it to inhale.
**** hurricane.
