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I'm addicted to my favourite non-existent recreational drug, cueing in; compulsive lying. The additional side effects to my mind, soul and heart, ain't as bad as I thought. When I'm being questioned about my troubling mental health, I lied straight through my teeth, that nothing could **** me, yet I wanted to **** myself the exact same hour. I once lied to a friend that, I will stay by her side but in actuality, I didn't even want to stay in this world But the biggest lie that ever happened is by telling myself that I will soon be alright, and lying is my only coping mechanism I think. You know what I love about this addiction, is that it's a distraction from the real harm, which is self-actualisation, of my ailing self.
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Dec 14, 2017
Dec 14, 2017 at 11:17 AM UTC
Addiction: Compulsive Lying
I'm addicted to my favourite non-existent recreational drug, cueing in; compulsive lying. The additional side effects to my mind, soul and heart, ain't as bad as I thought. When I'm being questioned about my troubling mental health, I lied straight through my teeth, that nothing could **** me, yet I wanted to **** myself the exact same hour. I once lied to a friend that, I will stay by her side but in actuality, I didn't even want to stay in this world But the biggest lie that ever happened is by telling myself that I will soon be alright, and lying is my only coping mechanism I think. You know what I love about this addiction, is that it's a distraction from the real harm, which is self-actualisation, of my ailing self.
sometimes things aren't the way I want it. And lying makes me believe that there's still hope in this world
#sadness#sad#pain#anxiety#anxious#crying#lying#lies#liar#disorder
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Dec 14, 2017
Dec 14, 2017 at 11:17 AM UTC
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