if this is the one and only life we live; if there is someone out there who exists-if we could have been a decent blend-but there is nothing more than what ifs because this life thing-we know is rigged; and there will always be "natural disruptions" and narratives;
in this realm-i simply exist; a contract i'd like to cancel before it ends; pain brought me to writing-bittersweet "creative" expressions-but it doesn't counteract the pain-it's just medical bandages on wounds that don't heal and are eventually reopened;
a bottomless pit of wants and needs-that's what we all generally have in common as a species; the societal landscape just isn't for everyone-i know it isn't for me....i find it difficult to believe that I'd ever have an actual life worth living- in a flesh, blood, and bone body and environment that threatens existence altogether....
Apr 8
Apr 8, 2026 at 1:33 AM UTC
if this is the one and only life we live; if there is someone out there who exists-if we could have been a decent blend-but there is nothing more than what ifs because this life thing-we know is rigged; and there will always be "natural disruptions" and narratives;
in this realm-i simply exist; a contract i'd like to cancel before it ends; pain brought me to writing-bittersweet "creative" expressions-but it doesn't counteract the pain-it's just medical bandages on wounds that don't heal and are eventually reopened;
a bottomless pit of wants and needs-that's what we all generally have in common as a species; the societal landscape just isn't for everyone-i know it isn't for me....i find it difficult to believe that I'd ever have an actual life worth living- in a flesh, blood, and bone body and environment that threatens existence altogether....
