I'm angry
maybe furious
painfully jealous
because I can clearly see
I have been left out
time and time again
I see you all
I hear your stories
you all have fun
enjoy each other's company
drinking, dancing
but me?
I'm at home
doing nothing
pretending I didn't want to join
because I'm good
I wouldn't want to indulge a bit
I wouldn't want to be invited
of course not
what's wrong with me?
what is it that makes you all assume
that I don't want in on the fun?
I'M LONELY
Even just some company would be nice
but it would seem
I'm unwanted
I'm undesirable
I'm a buzzkill
I'm useful,
but c'mon
you know you don't want me around
will you all just say it?
because clearly something about me
sends off some sort of signal
that I ought to be left out
forgotten
do you even realize how often i'm forgotten???
P E R S I S T E N T
C O N S I S T E N T
and you know what?
I'm jealous
I'm angry
I'm upset
because EVERYONE forgets me
I'm just not memorable
I'm not fun to be around
WELL YOU KNOW WHAT
IF YOU WERE PARALYZED BY ANXIETY
IF YOU WERE CONSTANTLY DEPRESSED
IF YOU WANTED TO TEAR YOURSELF APART
IF YOU HAD PEOPLE PLAY WITH YOUR MIND
IF YOU FELT ANY MISTAKE DEMOLISHED YOUR WORTH
IF YOU WONDERED IF YOU OUGHT TO JUST DIE
you wouldn't be much fun either
but at least someone might care about you
Sep 22, 2019
Sep 22, 2019 at 11:15 PM UTC
I'm angry
maybe furious
painfully jealous
because I can clearly see
I have been left out
time and time again
I see you all
I hear your stories
you all have fun
enjoy each other's company
drinking, dancing
but me?
I'm at home
doing nothing
pretending I didn't want to join
because I'm good
I wouldn't want to indulge a bit
I wouldn't want to be invited
of course not
what's wrong with me?
what is it that makes you all assume
that I don't want in on the fun?
I'M LONELY
Even just some company would be nice
but it would seem
I'm unwanted
I'm undesirable
I'm a buzzkill
I'm useful,
but c'mon
you know you don't want me around
will you all just say it?
because clearly something about me
sends off some sort of signal
that I ought to be left out
forgotten
do you even realize how often i'm forgotten???
P E R S I S T E N T
C O N S I S T E N T
and you know what?
I'm jealous
I'm angry
I'm upset
because EVERYONE forgets me
I'm just not memorable
I'm not fun to be around
WELL YOU KNOW WHAT
IF YOU WERE PARALYZED BY ANXIETY
IF YOU WERE CONSTANTLY DEPRESSED
IF YOU WANTED TO TEAR YOURSELF APART
IF YOU HAD PEOPLE PLAY WITH YOUR MIND
IF YOU FELT ANY MISTAKE DEMOLISHED YOUR WORTH
IF YOU WONDERED IF YOU OUGHT TO JUST DIE
you wouldn't be much fun either
but at least someone might care about you
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