I had gone to church with my family for a few weeks
it had been fun
there was food and I got to learn more
but then my voice f--ked it up
I was walking about things I like
those things I write would be seen as sinful
I murdered a character, had one k-ll them self, and so much more
and I then was asked
"are you a christian?"
and personality I don't really think I am
and I stated that I believe in a lot
the Greek gods seems true
one powerful being able to do something seems so...fake?
and I spoke of my fear after death and then I continued I couldn't stop
I was comfortable
and I looked back at him
the priest
and I was silent.
I felt so judged
I don't know why...
and I went on with the day and I didn't feel them
but after a day of fun
I felt them when I sat down wanting to write something that brings me joy
but I just felt
bad.
like his words were stuck to me like sweat.
I didn't want to do something I love.
I don't want him to judge me
but I know when I go back.
I'll feel like the black sheep and I'll beg and say
"Yes! Yes I'm christian I just believe others can believe in anything! what they believe will happen for them!"
but I don't think that's going to help.
I don't like this poem.
its sinful
I guess I don't know what that truly means
but its a product of something sinful so I guess it is.
I swear im christian.
I think.
Apr 1
Apr 1, 2026 at 2:05 PM UTC
I had gone to church with my family for a few weeks
it had been fun
there was food and I got to learn more
but then my voice f--ked it up
I was walking about things I like
those things I write would be seen as sinful
I murdered a character, had one k-ll them self, and so much more
and I then was asked
"are you a christian?"
and personality I don't really think I am
and I stated that I believe in a lot
the Greek gods seems true
one powerful being able to do something seems so...fake?
and I spoke of my fear after death and then I continued I couldn't stop
I was comfortable
and I looked back at him
the priest
and I was silent.
I felt so judged
I don't know why...
and I went on with the day and I didn't feel them
but after a day of fun
I felt them when I sat down wanting to write something that brings me joy
but I just felt
bad.
like his words were stuck to me like sweat.
I didn't want to do something I love.
I don't want him to judge me
but I know when I go back.
I'll feel like the black sheep and I'll beg and say
"Yes! Yes I'm christian I just believe others can believe in anything! what they believe will happen for them!"
but I don't think that's going to help.
I don't like this poem.
its sinful
I guess I don't know what that truly means
but its a product of something sinful so I guess it is.
I swear im christian.
I think.
