What have you loved and refused to say so?
53 responses
You'll realize that everything
Has been because of you
But I refuse to say so
You'll never know.
Or maybe you do know
But refuse to say so.
And so it's that door
I refuse to let go
I'm waiting for you to open.
Maybe your also holding
Refusing to let go
You're waiting for me to open
Where I think you're also holding.
I will never know.
faded meadow
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 11:54 AM UTC
i loved you
in the quiet ways—
in late nights that felt softer
just because you were there
in the way i laughed easier
like nothing could really touch me
as long as you stayed
i hid it
between jokes
and “i’m fine”
and all the things that sounded safer
kept it tucked
behind my teeth
like saying it too real
might change everything
so i carried it—
warm, aching,
a secret i wore close
and maybe you never knew
how much of me
was already yours
how many times
i almost said it
*don’t go*
faded fern
Apr 25
Apr 25, 2026 at 2:00 PM UTC
A mirror, withering.
A love burnt to ashes,
made to heal others.
A selfish desire
to be so selfless.
A need to disappear
in the moments of the act.
golden field
Apr 25
Apr 25, 2026 at 12:06 PM UTC
I refuse to admit that I love being gentle, I love being handled gently. No matter how hard my past is, how cold I had to become to survive I never stopped longing for the warmness, you don't get to take it away from me
secret dune
Apr 25
Apr 25, 2026 at 3:58 AM UTC
Things are perishable, emotions too, felt in certain moments and forgotten soon.
How could I love and mention, something so transient!!
Loving others was easy, never self
Never said it enough, I love myself
Should have said that earlier, and a lot more
Ignorance is a teacher, and now I know
warm cloud
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 4:44 PM UTC
what I have loved but refused to say so
Myself
I love my hair the way it flows in the air
but do you love the way the wind blows through
the quiet ocean
when nights are blue
you question
why I'm always alone
I refuse to say so (sneak peek Acc R3NNZZ)
wide sparrow
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 3:02 PM UTC
they put some sort of rot in my head as a kid and
now there is very little i can admit to loving without
waiting for the consequence and shame from the
laughter that will follow
moonlit ivy
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 8:45 AM UTC
the love for you, the love for all those broken things the world hated or abandoned , for i was one of them
silver willow
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 7:27 AM UTC
A lotus for you, a poison of mine.
Those beauty they see,
Was the facade of an ice,
Was the veneer of the mud.
And I could say i love you.
Because I am.
But i wont.
Because the moment I say so,
I was defeated,
To the man who took me for granted.
windswept wren
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 4:28 AM UTC
i cannot say
lonely barn
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 10:47 PM UTC
I have loved you,
For so long,
But in its cold shroud,
My heart has refused,
To beat.
The love it aches,
Behind the bony chest,
A skeleton closet,
For all my feelings,
Unsung.
For so long,
I have loved you,
And so, please,
Let the lined pages,
Of my written love,
Guide you.
blue ridge
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 9:47 PM UTC
The way you chased me
with a power drill
The way you smiled
when I called your name
The way I blush when
your hand touches mine
The way we deny what
is obvious to us both
faded fox
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 9:16 PM UTC
Love runs deep
Strong
True
And yet
And yet
I have no clue
Did I love you?
Do I still?
Or is it hatred
Buried
Disguised
My feelings unread
I can't decide
still heron
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 7:48 PM UTC
I decided to love something I should not,
the pain I face, the scars hidden away,
they give me a feeling that I lack,
a burn that keeps my mind fresh.
copper dune
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 6:59 PM UTC
My best friend
golden stone
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 6:40 PM UTC
every time you glance my way
out of the corner of your eye
and smirk
wide creek
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 6:28 PM UTC
I refuse to admit what my kink is, but luckily I don’t have to
restless elm
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 5:46 PM UTC
the day i lost my shadow cause i became her
love making on the public domain
a poplar tree: I made a pact with its windy tormented soul -
if it can survive its height, i can survive my depth
gentle garden
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 5:15 PM UTC
The earth
Nature
your smile.
Picnics
Dogs kissing you on the mouth
your smile.
These are my favorite things
But who cares?
dusky fern
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 3:37 PM UTC
You fight with me
I bring you gifts
too often, we find ourselves
well-
hanging out
even if we've had a bad day
but that doesn't matter
we're still sisters
although not by blood
but in our heads, we grew up together
we will stick together
i tell her-
but i don't think she understands
i care
a ton
and it seems that she doesn't
wide meadow
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 3:19 PM UTC
Baby.baby hold me.
It's not so hard to do.
I lay silent as I hope that hand, would just reach out.
And cuddle me in his arms.
I ponder and think.
The outer form is trained to be stern.
But within is a gentle woman.
Just crying out to be loved.
But as his head touches the pillow.
His sound asleep.
And the continuous sound of snoring.
Dispell the very heart.
Of a tender woman just waiting to be loved.
But a dream it will remain.
As he snores away.
blue thrush
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 3:10 PM UTC
don’t make me mad
don’t hurt me
because I’ll do the same back
and I’ll love it
I’ll destroy you
I’ll break you down
so don’t hurt me
because I’ll hit you harder
and I’ll kick you when you’re down
and I’ll love it
I’ll be satisfied
when you don’t dare hit me
again
when I say something
and you say I’m right
even if you don’t agree
just because you’re scared
of what will happen
if you hit
me
rusted shore
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 2:40 PM UTC
i’d be lying if i said i didn’t love it
cuz i do
i’m a couple minutes out from relapsing into you
fck it
baby i love it
i love it when we fight
and i like it when you’re mean
we don’t have to get into what that says about me
distant elm
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 2:27 PM UTC
Sadly, my adult son, we are estranged and he always wants to argue . I have had to distance myself, so I don't get drawn into his narcissistic and petty ways. He is very manipulative and now that I see it, I can't unsee it and can't play along to get along anymore.
drifting stoat
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 1:37 PM UTC
I have loved the chase, the tearing of my heart in every direction.
The late-night thoughts,
the ones that are bright and the ones that burn.
"what does the crook of their neck smell like?"
faded cedar
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 12:50 PM UTC
You'll realize that everything
Has been because of you
But I refuse to say so
You'll never know.
Or maybe you do know
But refuse to say so.
And so it's that door
I refuse to let go
I'm waiting for you to open.
Maybe your also holding
Refusing to let go
You're waiting for me to open
Where I think you're also holding.
I will never know.
faded meadow
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 11:54 AM UTC
A mirror, withering.
A love burnt to ashes,
made to heal others.
A selfish desire
to be so selfless.
A need to disappear
in the moments of the act.
golden field
Apr 25
Apr 25, 2026 at 12:06 PM UTC
Things are perishable, emotions too, felt in certain moments and forgotten soon.
How could I love and mention, something so transient!!
Loving others was easy, never self
Never said it enough, I love myself
Should have said that earlier, and a lot more
Ignorance is a teacher, and now I know
warm cloud
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 4:44 PM UTC
they put some sort of rot in my head as a kid and
now there is very little i can admit to loving without
waiting for the consequence and shame from the
laughter that will follow
moonlit ivy
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 8:45 AM UTC
A lotus for you, a poison of mine.
Those beauty they see,
Was the facade of an ice,
Was the veneer of the mud.
And I could say i love you.
Because I am.
But i wont.
Because the moment I say so,
I was defeated,
To the man who took me for granted.
windswept wren
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 4:28 AM UTC
I have loved you,
For so long,
But in its cold shroud,
My heart has refused,
To beat.
The love it aches,
Behind the bony chest,
A skeleton closet,
For all my feelings,
Unsung.
For so long,
I have loved you,
And so, please,
Let the lined pages,
Of my written love,
Guide you.
blue ridge
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 9:47 PM UTC
Love runs deep
Strong
True
And yet
And yet
I have no clue
Did I love you?
Do I still?
Or is it hatred
Buried
Disguised
My feelings unread
I can't decide
still heron
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 7:48 PM UTC
My best friend
golden stone
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 6:40 PM UTC
I refuse to admit what my kink is, but luckily I don’t have to
restless elm
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 5:46 PM UTC
The earth
Nature
your smile.
Picnics
Dogs kissing you on the mouth
your smile.
These are my favorite things
But who cares?
dusky fern
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 3:37 PM UTC
Baby.baby hold me.
It's not so hard to do.
I lay silent as I hope that hand, would just reach out.
And cuddle me in his arms.
I ponder and think.
The outer form is trained to be stern.
But within is a gentle woman.
Just crying out to be loved.
But as his head touches the pillow.
His sound asleep.
And the continuous sound of snoring.
Dispell the very heart.
Of a tender woman just waiting to be loved.
But a dream it will remain.
As he snores away.
blue thrush
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 3:10 PM UTC
i’d be lying if i said i didn’t love it
cuz i do
i’m a couple minutes out from relapsing into you
fck it
baby i love it
i love it when we fight
and i like it when you’re mean
we don’t have to get into what that says about me
distant elm
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 2:27 PM UTC
I have loved the chase, the tearing of my heart in every direction.
The late-night thoughts,
the ones that are bright and the ones that burn.
"what does the crook of their neck smell like?"
faded cedar
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 12:50 PM UTC
i loved you
in the quiet ways—
in late nights that felt softer
just because you were there
in the way i laughed easier
like nothing could really touch me
as long as you stayed
i hid it
between jokes
and “i’m fine”
and all the things that sounded safer
kept it tucked
behind my teeth
like saying it too real
might change everything
so i carried it—
warm, aching,
a secret i wore close
and maybe you never knew
how much of me
was already yours
how many times
i almost said it
*don’t go*
faded fern
Apr 25
Apr 25, 2026 at 2:00 PM UTC
I refuse to admit that I love being gentle, I love being handled gently. No matter how hard my past is, how cold I had to become to survive I never stopped longing for the warmness, you don't get to take it away from me
secret dune
Apr 25
Apr 25, 2026 at 3:58 AM UTC
what I have loved but refused to say so
Myself
I love my hair the way it flows in the air
but do you love the way the wind blows through
the quiet ocean
when nights are blue
you question
why I'm always alone
I refuse to say so (sneak peek Acc R3NNZZ)
wide sparrow
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 3:02 PM UTC
the love for you, the love for all those broken things the world hated or abandoned , for i was one of them
silver willow
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 7:27 AM UTC
i cannot say
lonely barn
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 10:47 PM UTC
The way you chased me
with a power drill
The way you smiled
when I called your name
The way I blush when
your hand touches mine
The way we deny what
is obvious to us both
faded fox
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 9:16 PM UTC
I decided to love something I should not,
the pain I face, the scars hidden away,
they give me a feeling that I lack,
a burn that keeps my mind fresh.
copper dune
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 6:59 PM UTC
every time you glance my way
out of the corner of your eye
and smirk
wide creek
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 6:28 PM UTC
the day i lost my shadow cause i became her
love making on the public domain
a poplar tree: I made a pact with its windy tormented soul -
if it can survive its height, i can survive my depth
gentle garden
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 5:15 PM UTC
You fight with me
I bring you gifts
too often, we find ourselves
well-
hanging out
even if we've had a bad day
but that doesn't matter
we're still sisters
although not by blood
but in our heads, we grew up together
we will stick together
i tell her-
but i don't think she understands
i care
a ton
and it seems that she doesn't
wide meadow
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 3:19 PM UTC
don’t make me mad
don’t hurt me
because I’ll do the same back
and I’ll love it
I’ll destroy you
I’ll break you down
so don’t hurt me
because I’ll hit you harder
and I’ll kick you when you’re down
and I’ll love it
I’ll be satisfied
when you don’t dare hit me
again
when I say something
and you say I’m right
even if you don’t agree
just because you’re scared
of what will happen
if you hit
me
rusted shore
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 2:40 PM UTC
Sadly, my adult son, we are estranged and he always wants to argue . I have had to distance myself, so I don't get drawn into his narcissistic and petty ways. He is very manipulative and now that I see it, I can't unsee it and can't play along to get along anymore.
drifting stoat
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 1:37 PM UTC
You'll realize that everything
Has been because of you
But I refuse to say so
You'll never know.
Or maybe you do know
But refuse to say so.
And so it's that door
I refuse to let go
I'm waiting for you to open.
Maybe your also holding
Refusing to let go
You're waiting for me to open
Where I think you're also holding.
I will never know.
faded meadow
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 11:54 AM UTC
I refuse to admit that I love being gentle, I love being handled gently. No matter how hard my past is, how cold I had to become to survive I never stopped longing for the warmness, you don't get to take it away from me
secret dune
Apr 25
Apr 25, 2026 at 3:58 AM UTC
they put some sort of rot in my head as a kid and
now there is very little i can admit to loving without
waiting for the consequence and shame from the
laughter that will follow
moonlit ivy
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 8:45 AM UTC
i cannot say
lonely barn
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 10:47 PM UTC
Love runs deep
Strong
True
And yet
And yet
I have no clue
Did I love you?
Do I still?
Or is it hatred
Buried
Disguised
My feelings unread
I can't decide
still heron
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 7:48 PM UTC
every time you glance my way
out of the corner of your eye
and smirk
wide creek
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 6:28 PM UTC
The earth
Nature
your smile.
Picnics
Dogs kissing you on the mouth
your smile.
These are my favorite things
But who cares?
dusky fern
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 3:37 PM UTC
don’t make me mad
don’t hurt me
because I’ll do the same back
and I’ll love it
I’ll destroy you
I’ll break you down
so don’t hurt me
because I’ll hit you harder
and I’ll kick you when you’re down
and I’ll love it
I’ll be satisfied
when you don’t dare hit me
again
when I say something
and you say I’m right
even if you don’t agree
just because you’re scared
of what will happen
if you hit
me
rusted shore
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 2:40 PM UTC
I have loved the chase, the tearing of my heart in every direction.
The late-night thoughts,
the ones that are bright and the ones that burn.
"what does the crook of their neck smell like?"
faded cedar
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 12:50 PM UTC
i loved you
in the quiet ways—
in late nights that felt softer
just because you were there
in the way i laughed easier
like nothing could really touch me
as long as you stayed
i hid it
between jokes
and “i’m fine”
and all the things that sounded safer
kept it tucked
behind my teeth
like saying it too real
might change everything
so i carried it—
warm, aching,
a secret i wore close
and maybe you never knew
how much of me
was already yours
how many times
i almost said it
*don’t go*
faded fern
Apr 25
Apr 25, 2026 at 2:00 PM UTC
Things are perishable, emotions too, felt in certain moments and forgotten soon.
How could I love and mention, something so transient!!
Loving others was easy, never self
Never said it enough, I love myself
Should have said that earlier, and a lot more
Ignorance is a teacher, and now I know
warm cloud
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 4:44 PM UTC
the love for you, the love for all those broken things the world hated or abandoned , for i was one of them
silver willow
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 7:27 AM UTC
I have loved you,
For so long,
But in its cold shroud,
My heart has refused,
To beat.
The love it aches,
Behind the bony chest,
A skeleton closet,
For all my feelings,
Unsung.
For so long,
I have loved you,
And so, please,
Let the lined pages,
Of my written love,
Guide you.
blue ridge
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 9:47 PM UTC
I decided to love something I should not,
the pain I face, the scars hidden away,
they give me a feeling that I lack,
a burn that keeps my mind fresh.
copper dune
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 6:59 PM UTC
I refuse to admit what my kink is, but luckily I don’t have to
restless elm
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 5:46 PM UTC
You fight with me
I bring you gifts
too often, we find ourselves
well-
hanging out
even if we've had a bad day
but that doesn't matter
we're still sisters
although not by blood
but in our heads, we grew up together
we will stick together
i tell her-
but i don't think she understands
i care
a ton
and it seems that she doesn't
wide meadow
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 3:19 PM UTC
i’d be lying if i said i didn’t love it
cuz i do
i’m a couple minutes out from relapsing into you
fck it
baby i love it
i love it when we fight
and i like it when you’re mean
we don’t have to get into what that says about me
distant elm
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 2:27 PM UTC
A mirror, withering.
A love burnt to ashes,
made to heal others.
A selfish desire
to be so selfless.
A need to disappear
in the moments of the act.
golden field
Apr 25
Apr 25, 2026 at 12:06 PM UTC
what I have loved but refused to say so
Myself
I love my hair the way it flows in the air
but do you love the way the wind blows through
the quiet ocean
when nights are blue
you question
why I'm always alone
I refuse to say so (sneak peek Acc R3NNZZ)
wide sparrow
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 3:02 PM UTC
A lotus for you, a poison of mine.
Those beauty they see,
Was the facade of an ice,
Was the veneer of the mud.
And I could say i love you.
Because I am.
But i wont.
Because the moment I say so,
I was defeated,
To the man who took me for granted.
windswept wren
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 4:28 AM UTC
The way you chased me
with a power drill
The way you smiled
when I called your name
The way I blush when
your hand touches mine
The way we deny what
is obvious to us both
faded fox
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 9:16 PM UTC
My best friend
golden stone
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 6:40 PM UTC
the day i lost my shadow cause i became her
love making on the public domain
a poplar tree: I made a pact with its windy tormented soul -
if it can survive its height, i can survive my depth
gentle garden
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 5:15 PM UTC
Baby.baby hold me.
It's not so hard to do.
I lay silent as I hope that hand, would just reach out.
And cuddle me in his arms.
I ponder and think.
The outer form is trained to be stern.
But within is a gentle woman.
Just crying out to be loved.
But as his head touches the pillow.
His sound asleep.
And the continuous sound of snoring.
Dispell the very heart.
Of a tender woman just waiting to be loved.
But a dream it will remain.
As he snores away.
blue thrush
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 3:10 PM UTC
Sadly, my adult son, we are estranged and he always wants to argue . I have had to distance myself, so I don't get drawn into his narcissistic and petty ways. He is very manipulative and now that I see it, I can't unsee it and can't play along to get along anymore.
drifting stoat
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 1:37 PM UTC