My heart is suicidal jumping in relationship after another. Just asking to be broken. Late night thoughts don't help instead just making my mind suicidal
Sep 20, 2015
Sep 20, 2015 at 4:37 PM UTC
11:36pm
I cried today looked in the mirror disgusted with what I saw sharp bones clawing out my hips and I dragged my finger tips upon the dips of my ribs.
11:42pm
I still don't feel wanted not even by me. You know what I'll do !?
11:59pm
Imma eat more that's it! Imma do that so I swallowed my pride. But the only thing gained was my insecurities. So I ate 2 hamburgers, a bowl of noodles and 3 tuna sandwiches.
12:07am
I wonder what you see in me? Why do you smile? When I am afraid that the mirror will break in my face .
12:22am
I'm not asking to be beautiful . I just want to be comfortable in my own body.
12:39am
You told me I was perfectly flawed but I figured you said that because there's always pros and con's. pro, I won't eat any of your food when we go out. Pro the electric bill will never be high I rather sit in the dark. con, your parents will think I'm going to starve you because it looks like I've become my first victim. Con, you can only hug me half as tight as you want because your afriad my bones like a twig being stepped on will break when theres to much pressure.
12:48am
I am a lost body looking for a soul but the crows won't leave me alone! I am alive! leave me alone they pluck at my eyes so I guess I have nothing to look for.
12:59am
If I could be any thing I would want to be oxygen because that way I know you really couldn't live with out me.
Sep 18, 2015
Sep 18, 2015 at 11:26 PM UTC