yes I know I need some love
but it shows up like sudden rain
and I then wonder if
I should delight myself in it
all these years gone by
the lies and the pain
then I ponder
if I could love again
the hide and seek
of the clouds and the sun
the warmth and drizzles
change my plans again
the mirror has been spoilt
shows me strangers
in its sight of the demons
i had slain
as I sit on the stairs of my home
in the silence and alone
I think of you
and it makes me smile in vain
Mar 7, 2023
Mar 7, 2023 at 8:40 AM UTC
if we had the ability
to keep a copy
of the people we loved
with us
a version of them
the way we remember
and if we could let go
the parts we could never fix
maybe then, we could breathe
maybe then we could move
past love that probably never was
maybe then we could.
just be.
May 21, 2021
May 21, 2021 at 11:10 PM UTC
When you feel the bed, the sheets
the room silent, cool
you can hear the sound of rustles
Aching for your hands on my back
nails that gently scratch
warm breath on my ear
I wanna stretch you open
and fill you deep
as you turn back to look into my eyes
And bite my finger hard
to stop from screaming out
and let out a shudder
You don't realise yet
that i was just getting started
and the rest of the day
you will be sore and tender
Jul 3, 2020
Jul 3, 2020 at 8:33 AM UTC
Disappointed i am
for i was dropped
like a potato
not that i was hot
Disappointed i am
for i was given heat
as i had erred
not that i was ****
Disappointed i am
for i lost the man
i used to see in the mirror
not that i can recognise anymore
Disappointed i am
for the time lost
in learning to love
and to have lost it all
Disappointed i am
while the world tries so hard
to put a smile and be grateful
and know its a slow death for us all
Jul 3, 2020
Jul 3, 2020 at 7:39 AM UTC
Starting again, staring at a blank page
Was this going to be a ramble, about a gamble?
Nah nah… it was just me, trouble
Cmon, start even if it's just a preamble
Words they are just that. Words
Can never capture the real world
Actions and guilt, sorrow and spilt milk
There you go, now you have an ensemble
Its season 3 with a similar plot
The casts different but protagonists not
Promising beginnings and shattered trust
Ah this is familiar, you are back in the temple
Mar 25, 2019
Mar 25, 2019 at 1:07 PM UTC
Please go in
Please go back
I am so sorry
That i ever wished
Wished something
Wished anything at all
Please go back
Take everything back
Little did i know
That you would
Make it all happen
Yes it did. And more than that
Please go back
And send me back
The first time i felt
This sun lit world
The smell and sound
The tastes and touches
Why do i wait
The rest of my breaths
Waiting to feel it
Once again
Please go back
And take me back with you
May 29, 2018
May 29, 2018 at 8:53 AM UTC
Born. Once again.
Air filling in my wet lungs.
Cant open these eyes.
Even if they did, i cant see
The skin, the hair
Are my only shields
And the sun and rain
Will make them hold me in
Oh my lessons from the past
Why cant i learn from them yet
I keep coming back
Just to see the sun set.
I grow in size
But my soul it seems
Is just a balloon
Holding all my sins
A day then comes
Of my final gasps
A check out bill of things
i lost and grasped
Again.
May 9, 2015
May 9, 2015 at 7:16 AM UTC
as i wander this city alone
wiping the sweat of my brow
and see the dust and grime
on my kerchief as i wipe my face
the mind it seems to be distant
sees your eyes and smile
feels your warm hand
and aches for your light kisses
the loud noises here
the soot filled air
its just the body here
as my soul is with you there
the day passes too slow
and the nights dont let me know
time teases me with its two hands
making me wait for your love
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 12:41 PM UTC
so you create me
and show me the beauty
of your other creations
then desire fills me
the needs and wants
pain and joy
prayers and pleading
then the lessons of karma
and then back to the dust
did i ask to be created?
or is this a game you play
to **** your boredom
i dont want your grace
your bliss or pity
my only request not a prayer
just uncreate me
Feb 8, 2015
Feb 8, 2015 at 9:42 AM UTC
this party has been good
the people, learning truths from lies
some laughter, some cries
but its the time in between
those are the toughest times
conversations of my mind
as i sip the spirits of thoughts
in these bars of time and space
mingling with the crowd
of solitude, despair and hope
i keep looking for the exit
and suddenly meet you at the door
Feb 7, 2015
Feb 7, 2015 at 6:12 AM UTC