This isn't the first time
Nor the second
Nor the third
If I had a dime
For everytime I thought of you
I would be drowning
In a pool of countless cold coins.
No matter how hard I attempt
To leave it
To ignore
To move on
I can't forget.
Yet you carry on with your life
With no worry or upset
Not having a slightest care or thought
Of the little girl who just may be
Obsessed.
Aug 23, 2015
Aug 23, 2015 at 9:00 PM UTC
One, two,
I was in love with you,
Three, four,
But you wanted more,
Five, six,
We were once romantics,
Seven, eight,
But now you're filled with hate,
Nine, ten,
I might never love again.
Eleven, twelve,
I will forever delve,
Thirteen, fourteen,
Till I figure out why you built a screen,
Fifteen, sixteen,
The reason you quit being so keen,
Seventeen, eighteen,
Why our spark faded till it was unseen,
Nineteen, twenty,
How your love left me empty,
Because all I've got now is my music,
And poetry.
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 8:16 PM UTC
Okay,
I know that I nag,
And I'm so annoying,
I always ramble,
And you put up with it.
See the thing is,
I haven't cared this much,
Not in a while,
And I don't want to lose you.
I'm scared,
That you'd break down,
And I wouldn't be there,
Or you might do something drastic,
Cuz I'll forever have nightmares.
You're so important to me,
I don't know why,
But I want to feel your heart aching,
I want you to know that I'll always care.
And that's why it kills me,
I never get to know,
If you're dying slowly,
Or I fill you with joy,
If you're incredibly happy,
Or I've made things worse.
I care so much,
And I love you so much,
You're the most realistic friendship,
That I've ever had,
And I don't want to discomfort you,
But I'm scared that I'll lose you,
It'll all be my fault,
For not trying hard enough.
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 8:15 PM UTC
He said to me with swollen eyes,
"Heaven is better than this,
So if there is no purpose for my living,
Why delay my rapture. I love you,
But I'm only going to Hurt you if I stay."
A peck on my lips,
"Go, run home!"
And he ran,
I yelled and cried,
He ran and ran,
I stood, so scared,
With tears in my eyes,
Gun shots in the air.
No one could help him.
"It wouldn't be suicide,"
The words he said echoed in my head,
"I'm just going to be in the wrong place,
At the right time."
I ran and ran,
Cried and cried,
I couldn't watch,
It was a blood bath,
A riot.
I ran home,
Ran and ran;
But home was where he was,
And I didn't know where that was.
I cried and cried,
And in that moment I was certain,
My soul had died.
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 8:15 PM UTC
I'm tired,
So tired,
Of myself,
Of life.
I'm complicated,
Too complicated,
Help yourself,
Stay away from me,
It hurts not only you,
But also me.
I'm clingy,
Never obsessed,
Though that might be your perception of me.
I expect too much,
Seemingly naive,
But I know how it all ends,
I know what always comes,
I know I'll bleed from my eyes,
But I still dive into salt.
Friendships only ever hurt me,
Relationships come back to haunt me,
For I know my insignificance,
In an immense amount of lives,
Yet I blindly dream,
That I might hold importance.
I know how it all ends,
Yet I dream,
And I never stop,
Maybe I'm just naive.
I have OCD,
My mum didn't believe me,
Perfect symmetry is my ideal,
No one understands it.
No one understands me,
I think so badly of myself,
I take some jokes secretly seriously,
I care too much about your thoughts of me.
I'm used for my talents,
Then disregarded.
With music,
I'm not to mess with,
My hands,
They apparently hold magic.
People tell me to be positive,
When I think that way,
What happens,
Is the opposite.
My heart holds supposedly false hope,
Though I hope with all my heart,
And so exude happiness unconsciously
I hurt for no reason,
Can't even pour it all out in my art.
I'm tired,
So tired,
I'm complicated,
Too ****** complicated,
So stay away from me,
If you want to ever be free.
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 8:14 PM UTC
I need someone,
That makes me lose track of time,
Of everything.
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 8:14 PM UTC
I can't sleep,
But you sure can,
Already told me that:
It helps to know I'm breaking.
Feel so right,
But you know I'm wrong.
Each day reminding me,
I was unwanted all along.
Calm demeanour,
Boiling underneath.
Holding back my emotions,
Through my clenched teeth.
You want to know me?
You want feelings?
You want to be let in?
How about you hear my screaming!?
You want honesty?
You're dreaming.
You know the real me.
And he's not worth believing.
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 8:03 PM UTC
Have you ever had a love so wrong that its not?
What about a friend, so ugly that they're hot?
I won't deny it,
I don't feel this way a lot.
Maybe I'll make an exception...
I hate you're far away, but I don't wish you were here.
I want to hear your voice, but don't whisper in my ear.
I swore I wouldn't drink, but god I need a beer.
I think I'll make an exception...
Wish I was on your mind, but please don't think of me.
Want you around all the time, but please just leave me be.
My heart's been welded shut, but girl you have the key.
You might be my exception...
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 8:02 PM UTC
He likes me, he likes me not,
He likes me, he likes me not,
He likes me, he likes me not.
Oh well,
**** the petals,*
He totally likes me.
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 7:57 PM UTC
Monsters all,
Are we not?
Some of which have lost the plot.
Confine them all,
Bolt and lock.
And pray that they will be forgot.
Corner them,
Bring in the S.W.A.T.
Hush the rest; disperse the shock.
Poke around,
Electroshock.
And hope that they will join the flock.
Social chains,
Block out a lot.
Our moral boats have been rocked.
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 1:47 PM UTC