What is my aim, why am I living this life?
Sometimes I question the meaning of this existence
It burns like the tip of a survival knife
With some unusual sparks of brilliance
I believe that it is up to us to find meaning
Some believe that life is about merely reproducing, others about improving
For some, pleasure is the ultimate evil, and for others, pleasure is a reason to live
I find my meaning within those brief moments, where the clouds of the world fade away and a beautiful ray of light shines
When I say my aim, I could say that I want to graduate school, get into a great college
Build a muscular body, some social skills, and some clout
Become rich and gain in knowledge
Without deeper meaning though, these perks will merely be façade, covering a drought
Today, I am that drought
It’s just that I don’t have a mirage for my desert in the form of looks, fame, or status
My face is consistently breaking out
Seeping through my flimsy skin apparatus
My aim is to acknowledge my scars, those fundamental flaws
Develop a sense of focus and purpose
If my young self were to see me now, would I be able to cover myself in gauze
Or would they see right through my ******** call it a circus
Jan 13, 2021
Jan 13, 2021 at 12:29 AM UTC
Hi Dad,
I just wanted to write this to let you know how much you mean to me
I’m not a very open or expressive person by nature
But on this fine day, I wanted to open up my heart to you and let you know how I’ve been feeling
Sometimes we only truly recognize the value of things when we’re about to lose them
About two weeks ago, I thought my life was collapsing
The imminent threat of your demise shook me from within
I often run away from the way I actually feel
For the first time in my life, this was something I couldn’t run away from
You have been there for me since the beginning of my existence
From my first breaths to my journey back to the US
Life hasn’t been fair to you
But you are the gift that keeps on giving
I’ve met many people in life, some of extraordinary caliber
I’ve looked up to many celebrities, just hoping for a chance to meet them
In not one of them have I seen such a capacity to handle other people
You take the world’s blows while giving back more and more
I’m mesmerized by your work ethic and astounded by your grit
Though you’re quick to get angry, your empathy is ceaseless
I wish you all the best in your next life
Honestly, I don’t deserve you, and you don’t deserve this existence
I’m an atheist, so I don’t believe in any higher power
Nevertheless, I see you as the source of my power
Aside from being my creator, you’ve been my source of nurturing
Without you, the world felt like it had lost its meaning
I’m a firm believer in nihilism, the philosophy that there is no meaning to life
In the wake of your ambulance ride, I found my purpose and meaning
Maybe life has no meaning logically, but in my heart, you really matter
I can hide from the world, but not hide from myself
I gave up on my self long ago, but you kept pushing me
So far and so hard that you almost lost yourself
Thanks to you, I’ve had an epiphany on my life
What on earth have I been doing
I feel like I’ve made this a little too dark and existential
So let’s lighten the mood a bit
I’ve seen a lot in your wake
Nothing has amazed me more than your enthusiasm
When it comes to carrying out tasks, you execute them with absolute persistence
Nothing seems to stop you, not even your own body, it seems
You are the foundation of the tree
No matter how much I chop off, you keep growing
So today on this momentous occasion, I come to show my gratitude
I’m quite self-centered and egotistical, so this doesn’t really come naturally to me
Thank you for all that you keep doing
And thank you for being the wake-up call in my life that I absolutely needed
Happy Father’s Day, Sanjeev
I hope that you spend the rest of your life in extreme bliss and happiness
You deserve more credit than you can think of
I just hope one day I can live up to your legacy
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 3:50 PM UTC
We all feel down and lonely
A pandemic is on the loose
It’s called COVID-19
Our leaders seem obtuse
Originated in China
Took the world by storm
Made doomsday a reality
Spread like a thunderstrorm
This is the world we live in
This is our reality
A small cough can go a long
way
Causing a tragedy
This is a collapse of society
This is a recession
The collapse of world
markets
The new great depression
Trapped inside
Feel the world’s about to end
Terrified
Of what will happen next
Great divide
Among our countrymen
Amplified
The threat of apocalypse
As we stay home in
quarantine
Contemplating the spread of
corona
The truth becomes clear to
us
We are a persona
One of greed and cruelty
And irresponsibility
The environment healing
from abuse
Ordained for “civility”
Life is all about relationships
Symbiosis helps both people
But in the environment and
politics
What happened to our
principles
The have-nots suffer as the
haves hoard
Some stay home while
others don’t
Medical doctors fight an
uphill battle
Our politicians simply won’t
Trapped inside
Feel the world’s about to end
Terrified
Of what will happen next
Feel defied
As we fail to adopt measures
Fully supplied
In anticipation of the crisis
Trapped inside
Hoping we win this war
Petrified
Of the scary possibilities
Fortified
From the pathogens around
Worldwide
We will vanquish this disease
As things seem to get worse
We must remain in our
bunker
Separate truth from
conspiracy
Never succumb to divide and
conquer
When this neo-apocalypse
ends
We must learn from our
mistakes
Blaming others won’t fix this
We will rise above the stakes
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 3:36 PM UTC
You’re feeling down and lonely
Pandemic on the loose
COVID-19, they call it
It’s all over the world and every breaking news
Showed up in Wuhan, China
Like a shroud, a locust swarm
Its a dragon breathing fire
With a breath like an oncoming raging storm
The virus has just gone vvviral
Can this ever be undone
We are on a downward spiral
Has the doomsday we’ve heard of really finally come
We’re scared and we’re petrified
Crisis and we’re trapped inside
Medicines can’t put up a fight
But, grit goes a long way in learning how to survive
Hey,
Now don't feel trapped
Don't you fear what's next
We're going to be strong
From here and now on
The world is not ending
Hey,
We're quarantined
But we know that's best
Morale’s low and down, I guess
And despite all the stress
This is the message we're sending
Stay home, stay real strong
Don't let the virus cause you harm
No more corona blues
Don't let the virus get the better of you
Revere this time, put it to good use
Don't you panic or be confused
We're all somehow paying our dues
Don't let the virus get the better of you
Don't let corona get the better of you
The world that we live in
Has a new reality
Can’t believe a small cough
Could lead to such fatality
One shudders at the thought of gasping for breath
Could meeting with people mean flirting with death
We are learning from mistakes
And we know now what’s best
We will rise above the stakes
So don’t be depressed
We’re gonna get rid of this nasty unwelcome guest
While corona still hangs in the air
Here’s my request
Hey,
Don't feel trapped
Don't fear what's next
We're going to be strong
From here now on
The world is not ending
Hey,
We're quarantined
But we know that's best
Morale is low and down
The test is still on
There is no room for pretending
Stay home, stay real strong
Don't let the virus cause you harm
No more corona blues
Don't let the virus get the better of you
Use this time, put it to good use
Don't you panic or be confused
We're all somehow paying our dues
Don't let the virus get the better of you
Don't let corona get the better of you
We must learn from our mistakes
Nature’s put man in his place
Almost a slap in the face
The bubble’s burst and we’re wide awake
Loosing thousands of lives
Makes my heart just ache
Forget truth or conspiracy
We’re just going to win this war
Don't let the virus get the better of you
Don't let corona get the better of you
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 3:32 PM UTC
Today’s the day
I see the glistening rays
Let’s get ready
For the adventure of a lifetime
Tonight’s the night
It’s time to move
The time has come
Let us begin
Today’s the day to prep for the journey
Many have tried and failed, but we must go on
We must go on…
We must be exemplary
Tonight’s the night to make a move
I see no challengers waiting to prove
That they’re the best of the bunch out there
And here we stand face to face with time
I’m struggling to see the mountain behind
The height is enormous and so is the view from there
I anticipate a long, treacherous journey ahead
Ruthless weather and an uncomfortable bed
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 3:31 PM UTC
Once upon a time, when we were bold and free
When we just had fun and were let be
Talked about growing up, about getting a job
But when childhood left, we began to sob
Oh those were the good days, you see
But now, we learn nothing in life is free
Everything comes from hard work and dedication
Life doesn't mould itself according to expectation
In the old days, we always looked forward to the future
But today, we are too burdened by the present
At one time, little things had so much meaning
Now, even big things struggle to make an impression
When we were naive, when we were young
When we didn't know the story real life sung
When we thought we were very special
When we believed we could cross any threshold
Today we learn the awful truths
That life is really just a flooded ticket booth
Handing out tickets to only those with money and luck
Throwing out others like dump trucks
Life is the most lopsided video game
Oneself is the hardest thing to tame
Life isn't easy, that's for sure
But we are all in this together, we can get through this pressure
Our childhood is never coming back
We can never cut ourselves that slack
We definitely do lack
But we can put ourselves on the right track
We can stay in the past, the known, the certain
Or we can venture into the future, the mystery, the unknown
Life may be cruel
But we are all jewels
Life may be hard, life may be unfair
The days of ignorant bliss are gone somewhere
But the day will come when we will ride the elite bus
We won't be ready for life, life will be ready for us
Everyone thinks that their life is hard
That they don't have that trump card
But there is a light at the end of the tunnel
For those who've entered the funnel
Life isn't so rosy and pretty
Especially when you are witty
But life has much to offer
Even when all seems lost and tricky
Childhood was great
But the rest of our life is a blank slate
We still have the power to write our story
To decide whether it will be one of regret or one of glory
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 3:30 PM UTC
Sticks and stones are cliche
For breaking people's bones
Notable for their ricochet
And the sound of horrible groans
But the same sticks and stones
Were the foundation of civilization
They were Mother Nature's loan
Exhausted without compensation
Used in every society
Majestic and tribal
Utilized by rich and poor
Friends and rivals
Used as pellets and spears
Now cannons and trenches
A cause of blood and tears
Loss of lives and disgusting stenches
Cornerstone of human society
Stones used in roads
Display of human piety
Sticks even used as replacement bones
Sticks and stones represent a choice
Whether to choose good or evil
You can give everyone a voice
Or be the cause of mass upheavel
Alas, the use of sticks and stones
Seems to be about breaking bones
It is a metaphor for shallow minds
Misunderstanding truth to be a straight line
Objective thinking
Believing in polarity and not spectrums
Refusing to see things through multiple shoes
Creating conflict like the pitches of a kickdrum
If we see through others' eyes
We will see the truth in both sides
Realize everything isn't black and white
Understand others' plights
Sticks and stones may break my bones
But they may fix them too
They can be the cause of my groans
Or the foundation of my roof
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 3:29 PM UTC
As I sit here thinking about how time has passed
Wondering how it all happened so fast
We were both NRI's who shared the same last name
Bonded over various silly little games
Never really thought anything much of it
And from there we became closely knit
Wherever you would go, you would see the Sharma bros
We shared our excitement and our woes
Complained about school, talked about Minecraft ideas
We reminisced over the US, and now it's time to see ya
I'm not really sure how I'll say goodbye
I'm not sure how our friendship happened or why
But I know I'll really miss you when you leave
Your absence was a thought I never concieved
Minecraft, Angry Birds Go, Bad Piggies, oh them all
They just won't feel the same when you're gone
I still remember our hopes of becoming internet sensations
Our endless talks on how to achieve our aspirations
Moving to India was hard, but we shared this difficulty together
Like two brave Steves fighting off the wither
I remember our first sleepover; it was a new experience for you and me
Getting to know you better and cutting down oak trees
We talked through the night about anything and everything
Addictively competing to see who was recieving the lowest ping
I had been alone in the US, never really found someone quite like me
You turned out to be so similar, sometimes I think we share a family tree
We always talked about going back to the US and how it was so much better there
And now when we are both returning back to our old homes, why does life seem unfair
We lamented about what all we gave up when we left the US
But never talked about what all we gained by reaching this address
They say you only realize the value of something when you lose it
I have Skype to play with you, but alone I will sit
We often play online, but there is a value to your presence
Even while we enjoy ourselves, I will lose your essence
I hope that you have a safe flight and journey
And will definitely come and meet you some time personally
I hope our stars align
We shall meet at least one more time
But for now, my dear friend Rohan, I shall say goodbye
If there is ever any problem, remember that I will be there to pacify
Be sure to send me a picture of your untanned hands building a snowman
We shall surely make some more memories and have something planned
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 3:29 PM UTC
Alone on a hot dry day
I sit and contemplate
What happened to me?
Yeah, What happened to me?
I was up on stage, rocking that song
Then I messed up and sung it all wrong
Oh, why right now of all times
Oh why right now
I’m the laughing stock of the city (Build-Up)
I must prevail against controversy
So what do I do? x4 (Rap)
I will redeem myself(Chorus)
I will show my strength
Show those judges I can sing
Give me the mic
Turn up the gain
And let loose all the pain
Redemption, Redemption, Redemption!
I want redemption…
I was the best of all of them
People thought I could win
I began to grow slack
And committed a huge sin
The appreciation got to my head
All 4 judges wanted me
Oh, the direction I was being led
Music came naturally to me
I breezed through the semifinals with little practice
Took me music for granted
“Now what do I do”, I chanted
I will redeem myself(Chorus)
I will swallow my pride
I will sway them to my side
Give me the stage
Turn up the bass
And show the world my face
Redemption, Redemption, Redemption!
I just want redemption…
I will rebuild my reputation back
Maybe even become a national sensation
But I will forget not the importance of humility
And shall not go astray
I will pray but don’t know about fate
I don’t believe in fate anyways
I will control my destiny
And reach the core of everybody I see
Now it’s time for action
I will expose myself to the public eye(Chorus)
Might be laughed at a couple times
But I will sway them to my side
Give me the audience
Turn up the expectations
And show the world how hard I’ve been practicing for this
Redemption, Redemption, Redemption!
I just want redemption…
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 3:28 PM UTC
Happy Birthday Palla Maushi
I wish you a great day and a happy year
Here's a little poem and drawing I made for you
Enjoy! :)
Today on this wonderful day
Your exsistance has concluded half a century
I've only known you for a small part of that freeway
But today, I wanted to celebrate you for being exemplary
One of my oldest memories is of your visit to Seattle in 2011
The DS and toys that you brought have given me an abundance of entertainment
Indeed, while the DS was a short term obsession
You are someone to whom I can share my joy and lament
Your bubbly presence brings light into the darkness
You disrupt the solemn silence and fill the room with energy
When I hear your spirited call, "Zevy Darling", I feel a surge of happiness
Neev and I eagerly wait to make the next memory
Your exuberant attitude towards life inspires me
I hope I can imbibe some of your vibrancy and qualities
Whenever circumstances are adversarial, I know I have a friend down the lane
You are like a boquet of vervain
Thank you for being so lively and cheerful
I hope this year blesses you with much joy
Sincerely, Zev
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 3:27 PM UTC