I weep at night and no one get's my pain
I get high at daytime.
I get drunk and buzzed at night
I'm no longer alive
Save me or not is the question in hand
If I overdosed you might care
If I get alcohol poisoning you might care
Oh who am I joking I am assured you wouldn't give a crap
Why do I try to please you when you don't care about me
Why do I keep trying to make you love me when I know you don't
Why am I an outcast in the "family"
Why is it always my fault?
What did I do to you to get so much despise from you
What was it that I did?
I'm sorry I'm not a boy
I'm sorry I'm not your kid
I'm sorry that you decided to marry my dad even though you knew he had kids
Why do I feel hate for someone who's a stranger to me
But I've know my whole life
Why cant you open your eyes and see my pain
Why cant you acknowledge my existence
Why do you care what I do anymore
17 and just want to die is that the new normal for me now?
what has my life came down to.
I had whisky in my hands then poured it down the sink
had **** and Nick and use it then felt sick
depressed all the time
I just want to die
I don't care about anything anymore
is that normal for a 17 year old??
May 12
May 12, 2026 at 9:00 AM UTC
I want to trust you.
I want to say I love you without wondering if it's true.
I want to be loved.
I have so much love to give,
I'm sad almost all the time
I want to give love back to someone
Is there something wrong with me?
why cant I just be happy?
why do I always feel alone.
Depression is kicking in again
Here we go again,
Wondering if I'm good enough for anyone
May 11
May 11, 2026 at 11:37 AM UTC
One day I will find the key to this cage that I'm suppose to call home.
One day I'll find my wings, one day I will fly.
One day i'll find my freedom.
I wish I could control my life.
I wish I could be happy without all these drugs prescribed and non prescribed.
I wish I could fly away and never look back.
Tell me I'm not strong enough to fly on my own.
Tell me that I can't do what I want with my life.
Tell me all the things wrong with me.
One day I hope I find the love of my life.
One day I wish I could have happiness.
One day I want little kids running around the house.
One day I will open the door to the cage and fly.
I wish I didn't have to waste away.
I wish I wasn't pulling away from others.
I wish that I could be free.
I wish I could disappear sometimes.
Tell me its all my fault.
Tell me I wont be a good mom.
Tell me that I have too much wrong with me.
Tell me that I'll never make it out on my own
One day I'll be free.
One day I'll be stronger then I am now.
One day I'll own the key and not be there prisoner.
I wish that one day my kids wont feel like me.
I wish that in the future I can be truly happy.
I wish and hope I find my wings.
Tell me what makes you proud of me.
Tell me that you believe in my dreams.
Tell me that I'm perfect just the way I am.
May 7
May 7, 2026 at 5:59 PM UTC
have you ever been stuck in a hole so deep that you cant get out and whenever you try to climb out of the hole it just swallows you whole.I have have you ever been in so much pain that you cant let go so much pain that you'd rather hurt yourself because you think its the best option you have. have you ever been under so much stress that you feel like your going nowhere I have. have you ever wonder how much better others would be without you I have. have you ever wanted to open up but you just cant find the words or a way to open up to tell them what's wrong I have. have you ever been in so much pain that you cant even get out of bed I have. have you ever been in **** a dark place that you'd rather die then be alive I have. have you ever wonder what cause you'r pain or what's wrong with you I have. have you ever just wanted to crawl in a hole so deep and dark that no one would be able to ever find you I have. have you ever been in such a dark place that all you want to do is disappear and never return I have. pain is something that affects us all, all you can do is get up and keep moving even if it hurts
Mar 21
Mar 21, 2026 at 11:38 AM UTC