Such a charmer, quick witted and eloquent,
Handsome and tall, A friend to one a friend to all.
He whispers word's you want to hear,
Stands till you sit, pulls out your chair.
Everyone loves Him, oh what a card
His jokes call forth laughter his wit razor sharp.
Then he stands alone and is empty and dark
Raging at shadows and cursing his heart
So cold and empty He knows he's insane
This act makes him sick but he performs just the same.
If you could see Him now would you want him around?
Muttering and angry eyes fixed on the ground.
He knows He's a bargain two men in one
Half dark madness half bright like the Sun.
One wanting to love one wishing you dead
One confused heart. One broken head.
Oct 4, 2010
Oct 4, 2010 at 10:09 AM UTC
Just another day
Soon they will find me out
Peering round curtains
Staring at nothing travellers
I take what is given to me
Pills like land mines
confusion in the dusk
So stupid in the morning
Bravery is way beyond
I take what is given to me
Still wanting you
Throwing poems at walls
Sew your heart shut
The medicine wont help
I take what is given to me
Porcelain insanity is still my love
Don't get what you want
Forget what I need
Get what your given
I take what is given to me
Aug 31, 2010
Aug 31, 2010 at 5:15 PM UTC
I look at you across this smoky room,
You are some one I just cant have ,
I wish i knew what enchanted me so,
I reel as I roll it in my mind.
After all theres the way you walk
the way you move
the way you sit
the way you stand
thers nothing more to say
But...
I love the way you speak
the way you smile
the way your eyes sparkle when you look my way
the way you make it known that you know you own me
theres nothing left to say
but...
I love the way slow anger burns inside you
the way you know your not perfect
the way you know you are perfect
the way you care so little
theres nothing left to say
but...
I love you
Jun 3, 2010
Jun 3, 2010 at 4:43 AM UTC
My Uniform was all pomp and shine
Now it's reduced to rust and grime
The Duke wants another push up hill
Its not what I'm here for I came for the ****
Lost amongst 10'000 just a face in the crowd
I would shout and yell but I was never that loud
I try to laugh through it but I'm never more than half up
Never an optimist half filled is my cup
I try to persevere try not to frown
But we all know that when I'm down I'm down.
May 25, 2010
May 25, 2010 at 1:21 PM UTC
I sit here in fear I don't want to go back
But I know it wont be long as my brain is still cracked
Still jumping at shadows still hearing them talk
Still ignoring my bed still up with the lark
I don't want the medicine I can do with out chats
The friendly banter they peddle is frankly all crap
They know how I feel? They know it must hurt?
Keep taking or pills or take a nap in the dirt
I know it seems silly to moan about this
There is nothing I can do when senses are amiss
I just wish I could be normal no more trips to Hospital
and I know you don't care because to you it's all so trivial.
May 14, 2010
May 14, 2010 at 2:30 PM UTC
I find it hard to sleep
I find it hard to eat
I find it hard to think
I find it hard to speak
I wonder is this love
Or the use of a Serotonin–norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor?
May 14, 2010
May 14, 2010 at 1:39 PM UTC
Just Three summers long
Every year it remains as strong
No closer to a third kiss
No tenderness to miss
Yet every day I love you just the same
I know If I admit it you would end the game
Lasting love is still so new to me
Other than you there is no one you see?
Violence and anger seem to disappear
Evil thoughts kept at bay when you are near
Under all my stoic smiles you know It's no Lie
I still believe Hope is the last thing to Die.
Apr 29, 2010
Apr 29, 2010 at 3:27 PM UTC
I don't ride I walk along roads never lonely along paths always busy
Regrets for company all hopes are companions
nothing behind me a thousand miles ahead
My feet swollen My legs aching like hell
But the ground is as quicksand to stop is to disappear
A departure is irrelevant a destination is still a dream
What thoughts I find on the path will nourish me
All plans push me forward
Over the next valley more adventures await
Around the next bend more Joys are skulking and bored
Just waiting for me to arrive.
Apr 28, 2010
Apr 28, 2010 at 3:32 AM UTC
Hanging my innards on a tree Carrion hunters flying low
Branches look so smart with my intestines dangling
and no one seems to care about the pain I go through
to make this thing jolly by spearing my kidneys on a twig
no one even notices my liver dripping down the bough.
You don't stop and ask about the way my skin is blowing in the wind
you don't ask how I got my Heart so high that birds are nesting in it.
No one even comments on the bark smeared in marrow and blood and bile.
I only did it to make you smile and laugh, I only went to the trouble so you would notice me.
And did you?
NO
Ignorant *****
Mar 20, 2010
Mar 20, 2010 at 8:30 AM UTC
I dident give up, It went away, Away my Love on a winters day,
I waited so long but it stays at bay, Away my love on a spring day,
I need my Love back but I still hurt in may, Away my love on a summers day,
It's not coming back as days crumble like clay, Away my love on an Autumn Day.
I see a glimmer of hope as days turn to grey, Away my love on a winters day,
Ive poisened the well now I must pay and you will never return my love not on any day.
Mar 17, 2010
Mar 17, 2010 at 5:27 PM UTC